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I posted an entry but deleted it before I went back to camp last night. I was afraid that we might quarrel again. But I did told her abt it juz now while having supper. I've finally got the chance to talk to her abt the things I've kept in my heart. Though I know what it was, I just want her to say it out herself. Coz I dun wan her to keep it all inside herself.
All along, I know that this road will be very tough for us, esp myself. But I persevere on. I just hope that one day she wll be touched and things might change. But after so long, things still remained the same though she has told me many times that she has decided this decided that. She is still struggling. Sometimes I really dun dare to talk to her. I'm really scared she might get angry. I really wonder why she cant be honest with me. Why cant she share her problems with me? I know I am sensitive. I think alot and my reaction is very big after knowing the truth. But at least I know what she is thinking rather than guessing her and there and making the both of us upset. I really dun understand why.
You may nv understand how I feel becoz you have nv really bother about it I guess. Its its its its GAY!!
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