[Life iS sO SiaN] ♥
y do we haf to study study n study??? after so many yrs of education.. i still dun understand y.. study sucks... haiz..woke up late..rushed for comm skills today.. was like day dreaming for the whole lesson.. dun even noe wat mrs raimi was toking abt.. wth~ wanan do OB project today but 3 member not around.. do wat project.. friday is the due date liao... got pissed off.. went back hm after comm skills n nv go for CSA tutorial.. dun gif a damn oso.... thurs haf to hand in the survey questionaire.. but nobody bothers to do it... wat is this man... f**k la... haiz...
went back mavis wif wei siong n gang to find Mr Ng.. he was so happy tt we still remember him.. getting married on 6 Nov... he already one table specially for all the BN students... so good rite?? no other sch students but juz BN.... touched sia... we say muz go out wif him before the day he get married n make him drunk... his last day of freedom before marriage... 5 nov.. reserved for Mr Ng... saw eugene when we were talking in the coffee shop.. cannot believe tt eugene n shi yuan r still together.. so loving some more... wat a couple... green wif envy liao..
a sucky nite to spend at hm... trying to do accounts hmwk but dun understand a single shit of it... fuck..!! i wonder how i m going to sit for the test on sat if i understand a single thing.... sucks... y muz we study??!! fed up wif studying liao...
ending wif.."study sucks..."
8:33:00 PM
[BrOtHeRs' DaY] ♥
today is our BROTHERS' DAY..!!! played soccer with hui, fan zheng, kim siah... yi zheng finally met up wif us...FINALLY...!!! so long nv see him liao.. he finally appeared... had a wonderful game of soccer today... shiok..!! after soccer.. came to my hse n watched Man U against Blackburn match.. wth~~ Man U losing till last min then draw.. Man U sucks big time now.. haf been Man U fan since 1994.. really very disappointed.. getting lousier n lousier... wth man.. JIA YOU..!! make me lose money... haiz..
mum went out to buy dinner for all of us... THANKS MUMMY..!! I LOVE U..!!
very tired to continue blogging liao... update more tml...
EnDinG witH: BrotHeRS rOCKS.. BrotHeRS FoR LiFe..!!!!!
11:11:00 PM
[CCN DaY] ♥
juz reached hm.. went to watch Alien VS Predators with fan n hui... not very nice.. we buget sia.. went princess n watch.. the seats r so uncomfortable.. but coz its cheap.. so went there to watch.. after the show.. as per normal.. came my hse void deck n tok.. tok till now... so sian... hui is worried abt his O levels.. 52 more days to Os... Jia you..!!
today was our CCN day... selling cookies n jellies..see every stall has lots of things.. ours so little.. the cookies were damn ex.. one small packet for a dollar.. somemore 4 pieces onli... not very nice.. some got chao ta smell one.. wth~~ but thanks for the effort gers...managed to make a profit of 40 bucks.. not bad.. 3 cheers for TB23... HIP HIP.. HURRAY.. HIP HIP HURRAY.. HIP HIP... HURRAY....!!
got back my econs paper today... saw my marks.. tears almost flow down.. i cant believe that i FAILED..!! THIS IS THE ONLI PAPER THAT I ACTUALLY STUDIED SO HARD N YET I FAILED.. WTF~~ really feel like giving up at tt moment.. what's the point in studying?? got back my OB too.. juz passed... i was damn fed up... y all the 3 papers which i did not study i passed... WHAT IS THIS..!!! FUCK..!! i shall not study for my tests anymore... i gif up..!!! cb... damn fucking fed up... find it very ridiculous... mark till so strict for wat... juz a term test n yet miss tan marked till so strict.. diagrams correct like nv gif marks like tt... WTH~~ fed up fed up FED UP!!!!!!!!!!!! haiz.. no mood to carry on blogging...
12:48:00 AM
[OraL PreSeNtaTioN] ♥
oral presentation is finally over..!! yeah..!! more relieved.. today i was shivering throughout the whole presentation... after tt.. asked mrs raimi how i haf done.. she said tt everything was alright but juz too nervous... got our essay back.. got 38/50.. cant believe my eyes.. first time i pass argumentative essay... but mrs raimi say muz go find out where we got the info frm.. haf to go n check all the sources again.. how to check sia... so long liao.. haiz... troublesome.. acct lect was boring.. dun understand a single thing at all.. dun even bother to listen oso.. stayed there to copy OB notes frm piyanut.. finally went for OB lecture today... but fell aslp when everyone is watching the video.. so boring.. regret attending.. should follow jason go hm... i was the first one to leave the LT when the lect ended... real damn boring... sucks big time...
said bye to her n went back hm...saw tt she was like a bit unhappy.. but did not dare to ask her y.. coz i scared i maybe wrong... so juz msged her to take cr on her way hm.. found out frm her in msn tt it's true tt she is not happy... all becoz of tt asshole... haiz... cant he juz treat her abit nicer?? i dun understand y some guys r like tt.. when u have not get the ger.. u treat her like bao... after u got her.. u treat her like cao.. haiz... really hope tt he can treat her better.. dun wish to see her hurt... cherish her when she gif u a chance.. she dun even gif me a chance... haiz..
***JuZ foR U...***
I hAf toLd u nOt tO pUt tOO muCh iN iT.. tHouGht u HaF tHougHt OveR iT cLeaRLy YesT NiTe.. wHeN U toLD mE u FeLL eVeN DeePeR foR HiM.. i Felt RatHeR sAd.. But i ToLD mYseLF tHaT sucH tHinGs CaNnoT mIaN QianG De.. I'M suRe hE caReS fOR u toO.. TaLk tO hiM.. hE wiLL TrY tO cHanGe bA.. aNytHinG.. CoMe finD mE K?? i wiLL aLwaYs bE tHeRe fOr u wHeN U neeD a LisTenInG eAr... I LovE YoU..!!
7:24:00 PM
[haiz.. yyy...] ♥
she say she feels tt i today treat her weird weird de... i oso dunno y... whenever i heard or see her together wif him.. i m very unhappy.. jealous?? i dunno.. haiz.. juz very sad... dunno how to describe my feelings... first time having such feelings... no matter wat... she still choose him in the end... nobody can replace his place in her heart... wat else can i do?? onli to gif up... but i cant cant... if i could gif up.. i would haf done so earlier on.. dun haf to wait till now... REALLY VERY VERY SAD..!!! sob sob...
10:17:00 PM
[sTupiD DaY...] ♥
so tired in the morning..as usual.. skipped CSA lecture today.. went for accounts tutorial at 12.. found out many of my classmates didnt go for lecture oso.. lolx.. peer influence... got back my accounts paper... the results sucks... juz passed onli... sian... really need to buck up liao... went to print my transparencies for tml's presentation.. left less than a day to go... so nervous n scared..
went to play basketball for awhile before going to the hall to watch captain's ball competition... my class lost.. ref kayu... cock eye la... asshole.. zahid went back to find the ref after the match.. a fight almost broke out.. but not zahid who started it... the stupid asshole wanna fight... act act onli la... wan fight wait outside la.. heard zahid says tt ken was on the way back to sch to settle it.. but was asked to go back..
actually wanna stay behind to watch the match which she is playing... but the more i watch.. the more dulan n buay song i got... qiang osao got very buay song.. see tt guy's face really destroy our day... sian.. we left coz we dun wanna see his face... i thought how good he was.. so so onli.. no big f**k.. went to canteen.. ming wei, jacelyn, xing n jess were sitting at the staircase.. mingwei was crying there.. tried to console her...haiz.. juz a game.. get over it.. there's lots more to come..
went TM wif qiang.. he went to buy his tie n shoes.. everything last min one leh he... stupid guy... met chee fan n ming hui on my way home... haha.. finally got my 10 dollars back frm chee fan... no money liao so got back frm him.. haiz.. apologised to them for having to cancel the BBQ.. so guo yi bu qu... haiz.. all my mum's fault.. qi yue cannot go BBQ.. WTF~~ haiz.. who ask her to be my mum.. so haf to listen lor.. bo bian... haiz.. sucks la..
8:27:00 PM
[FaN...!!!!] ♥
atmosphere was very tensed during comm skills tutorial today... those of them having their presentation today were so tensed up.. but in the end.. everyone did well... i really very xian mu ken... he's able to present his topic so well.. he is so well prepared.. he looks so professional.. good at answering the qns mrs raimi asked him.. u can see he really look like a big boss when he is waiting for his turn.. sitting there writing down things.. looks like a boss having an interview n grading the person... how i wish i can present as well as him on thurs... 2 more days to go.. so nervous... got back my CSA term test results... i was shocked... I PASSED UNEXPECTEDLY.. i juz cant believe my eyes at tt very moment.. i haf given up on CSA n did not touch the notes at all during the term test... MIRACLE..!!while walking out of sch.. audrey came running towards me.. i thot wat.. ask me to buy the balloons frm her.. she sellings it for CCN.. $2 bucks gone juz like tt.. actually asked them to keep it as i felt abit strange walking around wif it..but they refused.. asked me to keep..they r clever by selling balloons for $2 each when its cost price is so damn low.. not like my class.. so stupid... haha.. ..
feeling very fan now... fan abt my oral presentation on thurs.. talking abt the topic on caning in sch.. but unsure whether to tok abt favouring caning or against it... haiz.. OP juz sucks to the core.. haiz..
she did not present well today... maybe she is juz too nervous.. nvm la.. there's some more to come nxt time.. tk this as a lesson to learn..haiz.. fan over her oso.. i oso dunno y.. sometimes i wonder does she feel anything after all the love, care n concern i have showered one the for the past 2 mths?? maybe she juz treated me as her close fren all along?? haiz... I DUNNO..!! really dunno y i m feeling this way.. dunno y i haf fallen so deeply for her... dunno dunno dunno.... haiz... the feeling sucks.. it's so terrible.. ..
LiFE iS sO MiseRabLe n MeaNinGLeSs..!!
9:03:00 PM
[Cb Kia] ♥
started my day very restless.. tried to slp early yesterday nite but turned n tossed on the bed till 4++ then fell aslp.. waste my time.. apel lesson was rubbish today... econs was difficult to understand today...but i got to understand a bit.. if the CB kia behind me could keep his mouth shut.. i would have understood better... fuck ni.. ppl having lesson n u r there making so much noise.. CCB~ after lecture diao me at canteen.. dian si mi lan.. xiao qiang said..."look at urself man.. so ugly still wanna xue ren diao ppl... fuck off la..." i agree with his words man.. tink he is some handsome guys in our sch?? lian gou dou bu ru lor.. CB kia.. walk like big fuck when u r a chicken?? u tink u own the sch one huh?? enuff of tt CB kia.. after lunch.. went 800++ to buy bubble tea.. the weather was damn bloody hot.. standing there reminded me of buying the chocolate milk tea for her but she dropped it accidentally in the LT.. haiz..
went TM wif grace, qiang n ben.. i wana buy my tie for the presentation.. stupid presentation.. 5 mins onli muz wear till so formal.. fuck sia.. we window shopping around at TM.. saw something very nice.. grace asked all of us to get one together.. but in the end oso didnt get.. quite ex.. tink shall buy it for her for her birthday.. but will it be a bit too early?? haiz.. see how la.. went to take neo prints... it came out not too bad... bought my tie n tie clip frm CS... it's so cheap man.. both add together onli $6.80.. cheap rite??
saw kim siah n his gang on my way back... juz found out tt they had quitted sch n taking their Os in private schools now... wat a waste.. kim was a intelligent guy in the past.. yet turned out like tt.. brother n sister all frm SEP sch.. but he is.. haiz.. sad for him... haiz.. no mood to carry on blogging... when got mood then update again...
4:48:00 PM
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It's mE.. sLacKinG aT hoMe...
3:48:00 AM
SaD ♥
Woke up late in the afternoon so got energy to stay up late.. slacked the whole afternoon at hm.. watched how li jia wei lost the match today.. she could haf won it easily.. already 3-1 up.. yet she lost it.. haiz.. wasted.. hope she will win the bronze medal.. go jia wei go.. I m behind u..!! whole S’pore will support u too.. goo..!!
Went for dinner wif hui n fan.. lots of crap frm the three of us.. wanna discuss wat to buy for our BBQ nxt week.. walked back to my hse void deck.. discussed what to buy liao.. but.. haven’t book the BBQ pit.. n still haven’t confirm how many ppl going.. sian.. halfway through our conversation.. one short fren of ours, a neighbour of mine.. pei sin greeted us… we joined as in talking.. once she sat down..hui kept calling her shortie n teasing her.. lucky she is not those petty type.. or she is used to us calling her shortie?? Haha.. bad rite.. this is how we make fun other one another.. happily talking abt our pri sch life.. it makes me realized how happy life was back in primary sch.. we buddies.. hui, fan, zhneg, desmond, zheng lin, hock yong.. n the gers.. gin, pei, wei li, melody, melody, yuet ling n charmaine.. how much fun we had together.. but life wasn’t the same anymore after we graduated.. every one left for diff sec sch except fan, zheng n me.. we were posted to chai chee sec together n transferred to bedok nth togther.. we were very close.. but it was juz in sec 1 n 2.. the 3 of us r always together.. going for lunch after sch.. same cca.. came my hse here for soccer.. during sec 3 i n zheng left fan.. we were attached n we felt unfair to bring fan along n leave him alone.. but in sec 4.. all of us went diff ways..
I n zheng got so distant.. he turned so diff.. till I almost cant recognized him.. wat had happened to him.. we lost contact wif him.. everytime all of us meet up.. he is the onli one not turning up n not answering our calls.. not once, not twice, but thrice.. wat does this mean?? He has forgotten abt us?? Having news frenz n forgetting the old buddies?? Haiz.. how I wish I can turn back the time.. we miss him very much.. n dun wish to lose such a good buddy… things can nv be the same anymore.. haiz.. chatted till around 12 n went back for soccer match..
Miss her very badly.. msged her.. she told me she having a bad sore throat.. very xin ku.. got so worried abt her..
in the morning she said she is fine.. but now.. haiz.. medicine not effective.. dunno wat lousy medicine did the stupid doctor gave her.. she dun haf watermelon powder at hm.. wanted to go buy for her but remembers shop closed liao.. nvm.. tml I go buy for her.. asked her to drink salt water instead.. hope she will be fine soon.. how I wish I can be wif her taking cr of her..
but she already has him.. haiz.. hope he can tk good cr of her… SHE IS SO DEAR TO ME..!!!
3:29:00 AM
boring friday.. ♥
slp late last nite.. watch olympics n saw how li jia wei won wang nan in table tennis yest.. GO SINGAPORE~ slept at 5+ woke up at 9.30 in the morning to apply for the CDS thingy.. wtf~ there's so little choices to be chosen frm.. still say alot.. haiz.. finally got jap as my first choice.. hope can get it..meet qiang at bus stop n went for lunch together.. received msg frm her saying tt she's having a fever.. no wonder sms her last nite she didnt reply.. was so worried abt her but i cant do anything.. felt so useless.. can onli ask her to drink more water n rest more n nth more.. how i wish i can be by her side taking cr of her..haiz.. had push cart thingy today.. managed to earn 14.80.. much more than the previous class.. the previous class was damn irresponsible.. hand over the shift to us without counting the stock balance n money all that.. go hell la fuckers..
late for econs today got the push cart cant be locked.. ee ling asked us to bring the goods up to class.. wtf~ all the goods to be brought up to class???!! we dun cr.. we played around wif the lock n it works.. saved the effort of bringing the goods up.. econs tutorial was damn short today.. lasted for an hour onli.. we were shocked.. finally understood the topic on output n cost.. tt time skipped lecture n dunno a single abt it.. thanks miss tan ee ling..
went to the notice board to check the day for my oral presentation.. it's on thursday.. sucks.. thursday no ava equipments.. NO POWERPOINT..!!! how to present n to score in the visual aids component.. f**k.. use transparency?? need to waste money on printing it.. sucks.. so unfair... others need powerpt i no need?? haiz..
damn bored during OB.. i was slacking throughout the whole lesson.. lying on the table but not scolded.. hehe.. everyone was so bored.. jacelyn kept telling me she's bored.. then i asked her to play ji ko ba...lolx.. intend to go expo with zahid after sch but something cropped up can't go wif him.. sorry brother~
still miss her very much.. wonder how she is now.. still running a temperature ma.. haiz.. muz tk cr of urself.. muackz..
9:12:00 PM
BorINg DaY.. ♥
had a late nite again last nite.. today woke up late.. sian.. dunno y get to slp every nite.. miss her too much?? i dunno.. haiz.. had a boring day today.. comm skills was boring.. acc was boring.. everything was boring.. during acc lecture i was slacking.. put my legs on the seats.. jacelyn came in n saw my legs n diao me.. EVERYTIME ONE LEH..!! diao me coz i put my legs there.. even though she dun even intend of sitting there.. do u?? i dun tink so rite xiao mei mei.. skipped OB again..after lunch went TM G2000 with ben, jason n qiang.. intend to buy our formal clothes.. but G2000 sucks.. not much variety.. outside G2000 stood 2 TP students frm design sch doing survey of the G2000.. very frenly guys.. went to isetan after G2000 n proceed to metro after isetan.. went hm empty handed.. haiz.. have to go n find again tml.. went play pool at pavilion as its still early.. today no form.. sucks.. lost 4 games out of 7.. sucks~~ haiz.. maybe coz feeling down?? felt tt i haf no fate with her... walking past the shop she was in but did not see her but saw her frenz.. n always after she left the shop then i arrvied.. we not really not fated to be together?? can anyone tell me what should i do?? really feeling very detached.. seeing her wif him makes me even worse... haiz...lifes sucks to the core for me.. sucks sucks sucks...
MissInG yOU eVeRy miN eveRy sEc iS wAt i dO evErYDay.. U R alwAys iN mY minD..
12:42:00 AM
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View aT BoaT QuaY
12:42:00 AM
FreNz.. ♥
frenz.. wat r frenz for... i always wonder.. till i started my poly life.. got to noe some good frenz.. we got close to each other ever since we started sch.. studying together at nite.. playing pool n many other things.. we r always together... but things r changing rite now.. i really hav no idea y.. maybe its becoz of the project which causes us to drift apart.. joyce started drifting apart from me n xiao qiang or should i say the other way round..?? i haf no idea y.. we juz find tt joyce has no time management n does not have any sense of responsibility.. can u imagine someone holding to our project outline n has to be handed in to the teacher by 5 n she is still not on her way when we called her at 4.45?? we need her peer evaluation form before we can hand in our project n she is late?? we got a bit pissed off wif her.. since mon both of us were drifting apart frm her..
until yesterday nite she told me she was rather depressed.. her reason was she felt neglected n tt everyone is treating her transparent.. taking her for granted.. need her then tok to her nicely if not shout n scream at her.. xing even asked her y she is not with us anymore.. yup.. ben n jason asked me the same qn oso.. i oso dunno how to ans them.. i wish tt everything can be back to normal.. the 3 of us hanging out together after sch though sometimes joyce can be very irritating n likes to give lame jokes.. but both qiang n i r very concerned abt her.. tt time we were playing pool n she was back in sch rushing her essay due at 5 pm.. till 4 she is not even halfway thru... though we were playing, we still tink of her.. wondering how she is doing.. if she can manage to finish anot.. so joyce.. dun feel tt qiang dun cr abt u.. we r all frenz man..
EnDinG: I'm still thinking of u..
12:06:00 AM
Sianzz..!! ♥
today didnt go for CSA lecture... too tired to wake up.. slept till 11+ until sixx called me n woke me up.. lucky.. if not i will be late for my tutorial.. tutorial was sucky.. i hate biz accounting.. P & L sucks to the core.. dun understand a single thing.. juz wasting my time there.. haiz... tml haf to waste money again.. got to buy formal clothes for my presentation nxt week... maybe buying a tie onli.. the rest haf liao.. sian.. MONEY MONEY MONEY..!! I NEED MORE MONEY..!!
8:49:00 PM
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reading up the manual for a dummy but was being said as act guai.. wtf~
2:53:00 AM
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At orchard food fest..
2:35:00 AM
Finally created one... ♥
it's 2 am now.. juz created my blog today although i haf been wanting to create one long ago...felt very tired today as i slept at 6am and woke up at 7 in the morning the nite before.. cant get to slp.. chatted with xiao qiang till 4++.. he is another power guy.. went hm halfway thru econs lecture n slp till nite...watch olympics the whole nite..
the gals were so excited as to wat to wear for nxt week's presentation during comm skills today.. wth~.. wat is it to be excited abt.. it's juz formal wear.. teacher is boring too.. gave as time juz to discuss wat shall we wear nxt week.. juz wasting my time staying in the classroom doing such unneccesary things.. oral presentation is nearing n she has not even finish teaching us wat to do.. yet wasting time on such things.. our class late queen was not late for lesson today and xiao qiang was saying.. miracle.. looked at the time n say muz go buy 4D.. 0905.. shall i?? i shall consider... FIRST TIME LEH..!! UNBELIEVEABLE..!! even mrs raimi noes wat we r toking abt..
after lunch.. jason, ben n i went to the push carts to find jace n her grp.. they r selling for the CCN.. we 3 guys were di siao-ing the whole cart n not helping out at all.. very bored~ standing there doing nth.. wtf~waste of time.. fri is my grp's turn.. went for dessert at tamp inter.. abt to board the bus n joyce called out to me.. asked me to acc her to TM to get her fone.. in the end.. did not get one too.. she has to pay 100++ to get a fone.. she dun wan.. in bus 69 on my way hm.. there's a bunch of CBK.. gals some more frm bedok town sec making a nuisance.. irritating bitches.. dun even noe how to use the appropriate vulgarities.. feel like giving them 2 tight slaps.. fuck~
ending with.. shall start my day fresh tml... JIA YOU..!!
1:39:00 AM
