Back to blog. Had passed my whole of last week at Singapore Science Centre. The most relaxing job I've ever had. Just sitting there and get paid. The only tiring part is the journey to and fro Jurong. Got to know two "straight" girl friends and clicked well. Got to know a lot about their lifestyle. And the other colleauges were nice too. Had lots of fun there. Mahjong after work for the whole week. And the last day, I received a call from Steph's mum. I thought something happened. Was shocked to know that she actually wanted to introduced my mum a job. Had a short conversation and had a clearer picture of what went wrong. I'm sorry.
Went TM with Jason to get Jocelyn's presents yesterday. A cushion and coloured papers. Saw Jacelyn and had a short chat.
Woken up by Miss Lim Shu Jun this morning. IDIOT!! Had nothing to do at work then smsed me to disturb my slp. In the end, met her for lunch. Didn't know so much things happened to the group of girls. Haiz. Girls are really hard to understand. And that dumb girl till now have not collected her cert!
Steph's mum have found a job for me at her office. Gonna start work again tomorrow. That's better. Rather than staying home doing nth, or playing mahjong everyday, going to work is a better choice. It will be at Haw Par Centre DBS tml till end of this month. Next month onwards, it will be at Comtech. Haha! My SIP work place. Can meet up with SCF colleauges for lunch already. Very long didnt go back. No life before enlistment. Haiz. Gonna save the money and get my car after NS.
Rushed home for dinner with J couple. And listened to my mum's long long old stories again..
In MSN, emotions were filled. Things weren't going right. I have nth else to say or do anymore. My sister was feeling down too. N mei, is it becoz we are really linked? We are always feeling down almost at the same time. I could not find any ways to help her too. I've tried my best.
When two persons get along very well, they become close friends. Things might can better if both become a couple. But there's difference between friends and couples. There's no limitations nor restrictions towards friends. You wont get jealous or angry over the slightest thing he does. Being a couple, you will tend to get more demanding. When you are down, the first person you will find is your partner. If he's not there, you will be upset. You expect your partner to ans and reply all calls and msges. And when things are not right, you wont dare to voice out for fear that it will get worse. Is this right??
Communication is the most important thing. Open up and tell your partner how you really feel and let him understand you better.
This is what happened to me. My last relationship was lack of communication. Always thought that an apology and forgiveness can cover everything. But things were not that simple. It will just carry on piling up and they will be brought out to say when things got heated up. Steph and I had a tough time in the past too. Whenever we quarrel, she wont want to sit down and talk things out when she is angry. When things cooled down, she refused to talk as she dun wish to quarrel anymore. I didnt bother to carry on with it too. Once, twice, things will still be alright. But when every quarrels seem to be about the same things, she decided to talk things out. N thank god, with the help of my mum too. We finally understood each other's feelings, likes and dislikes. She hates it alot whenever I asked to clear things up too. But I just dun wish to have more problems piling up. Coz we are talking about long run here and not short run. There is still a long way to go. Things should not stop here. Becoz of a moment of happiness, you end up regretting in future. It's not worth it. Every couple should open up and be honest with each other. Though you know that things may not turn out well, do it. At least you are honest and your partner will still know what you are thinking. Dun hold back anything between each other.
To you: It's all going well for you. Hope that you know how to treasure what you have now and also think for your future. Is this the path you wish to lead all the way? I think that all my words were said yet nth have gone into ur ears. Hope you can straighten out your thoughts one day.
To sister: Mei, its really hurting to see you like that. You are just not in the right mood to talk about all these just now. I apologise for not being of any help. But I will still be there for you if you need me. Dun be so silly to think about those things. Think over what I've told you ba.
Gonna start wrok tml. Was a bit sian. Have to wake up early like 6.30. Its so like school days. Sian.
Sometimes I really dunno what I am thinking. Is this the way I want it to be? Are there any regrets in the decision made? Till now I got no answers. Have I really gotten over it... I am unsure too...
"and it's quite upsetting to see how someone so close to you change to another person. kor, she has really changed you. you're no longer the sayhee i know 7 years ago, no longer the funny-nonsense-lame-rubbish-irritating guy.pretending to be happy wont help ease the pain. i doubt you'll feel better this way either.and i really hope to see that the limsayhee i know 7 years ago, alive again."
Thanks mei! Dun worry. Ur kor is still alive and kicking. Just that the spirit dunno fly where. Like you said. Must call the "whatever" call the spirit back. lol. The funny-nonsense-lame-rubbish-irritating lim say hee is on his way back.
Met Jocelyn at Far East and Nick went for his hair cut. About to head back to Tampines for bowling. Received a sms and was overcome by disappointment. Left for Katong instead. Billiard while Nick visits the chinese physician. He sprained his wrists and ankles due to an accident last nite.
Went to cosy bay for dinner. It's not cosy at all!!! I wasn't happy at all! Just kept smoking at the top though its for non smokers. No mood. Rushed down to Pasir Ris. Thought of attending Edmund's BBQ but the carpark was full. I was pissed and impatient in finding a parking lot. Hence, sent the two couples home and went for a spin on my own.
Wat a day!!!!
Met Jason this afternoon for number ball. Went to fetch Jocelyn and his aunt. Back to Paris Ris for dinner. Thanks Aunty.
Headed to DTE instead of Ah Da's hse. Went to play UFO catcher. Caught two pigs. Haha. N that stupid couple caught 6. Dunno need so many for what sia. Then back home.
Very fed up with my mum sometimes. Have told her to give me n sis some privacy. Always like to look into our things. Invading into privacy once or twice is okay. But after reminding her so many times, she still did that. Scolded her in front of J couple. I dun give a fuck. Fucking fed up. This is the last time!!!
Woke up early this morning and got myself prepared. About to leave the hse, PO called. She can't meet me today and postponed. Wasted my precious slp time!!
Slept till about noon and woke up feeling very hot. Realised my fan is spoilt. Dad bought me a new one. Met Jason for lunch outside school. Miss the food there.
Gave gym a miss today. He's staying over at Jocelyn's hse tonite n lazy to go home to get new set of clothes. Cabbed down to Safra for number ball again. Is my luck back? Got myself some extra pocket money these days. Hope things will get better and more things or people will come into my life.
Have been thinking of some things lately. Lost of what to do. Unable to seek advice. So lost!! Just wish I can get what I wish for and more sleep by next week...