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I am always back with unhappy news. Any kind soul who wish to help a com nerd to change my blog skin which someone actually promised to help two months ago but nth is done.
First of all.. mei.. ur kor is still alive and kicking. Just that I m not as hyper as before anymore. You should noe better than anyone what is the onli thing that can turn me into this state.
Many friends of mine kept asking me why m i so stupid? My ans to them was love is blind. But i just realised I was the blind one. I don't know how many chance i have to give but got back nth. Yes. Love someone is not to ask for something in return. But the least should show u actually care. I felt unappreciated, taken for granted. Where were you when I needed you most? Where's the support from you? Where?!! No where! Camp camp n more camps. Yes. She likes to have fun but shouldn't there be a limit? How i envy my colleagues. Both of them working yet they still find time to call each other to ask a simple question like, "have you eaten?" One better still.. called from philippines. What about mine? I really don't know. Frenz asked me why are my face in her friendster profile. What should i say? I have to find excuses to cover up for her everytime. I have not seen her for more than 2 weeks. She didnt even bother to give me a call or say anything like she wish to see me. When asked to come over to my hse, lots of excuses were heard. I have to work 12 hours a day yet she expects me to wake up early in the morning at 6 plus to her hse to meet her. Why can it be the other way round? Why must I always be the one doing all these things? Why cant she make me feel loved too?
I m sick and tired of it yet cant bear to let go. I cant bear to see her getting hurt by others again. But by doing this, I'll get hurt. I really don't know what to do. I tried to save it many times. But situations don't permit me and i eventually decided to give up. Anyway, i'm sure she has known lots of guys and happy with them around. So let it be. I can't be bothered anymore. Few frenz said it has been a long time since they last heard from me. Ah Soh is one of them. It's not tt I don't want. Hope I will gain back my frenz once again. Poly life to me is not as meaningful as sec sch life. I can count my close frenz in poly with my bare hands.
All the best to her and her future.
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