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Everytime i update my blog there are sure to be some unhappy things. Haiz.. So u are expecting nth new this time round too.
Met baobei at Downtown east coz she went for proj meeting. Had our breakfast there n we proceeded to Singapore Zoo..!! So old liao still acting like kids! Hehe.. Bo bian. Singapore so small. Nth better to do liao. So went to "hui gu tong nian". Love baobei's companion so much. it has been so long since i went there. Had fun there. Baobei kept looking at gers!! Not guys! But gers!! somemore aunties! Everything was going on well n we left for home. Took a short nap.
Was watching the match when andrew called. If u haf read my past entries, u will noe who he is. Baobei showed me. She didnt want to ans. I took over the phone n ansed. I was damn fucking pissed off wif him. He hasnt been calling for such a long time. It is onli after baobei called him tt day when we quarreled then he started to call almost everyday except yest. Mum said i should not be angry wif him but wif baobei. But i felt otherwise. I wasnt angry wif baobei at all. I was angry wif him. Y did he keep calling!! I was damn pissed yet she kept giving me a black face n all. I got so fed up wif her. Y muz she call him tt day! Y cant she juz settle things? Y muz she wait till she reached home then she settle things wif him n not in front of me?!! Wat is she trying to hide?!! I really dunno. Sent her home. She kept humouring me. I chose to ignore her. On my way home, i was hoping for an sms from her. But no. She didnt!! She juz went online. Msned n friendster!! In the end, she made things like its all my fault. Kept mentioning tt onli cherie understand me n not her. She juz dun understand how i feel n how much cr n concern i need from her when such things happened. Everytime i see him calling her, it reminds me of how she lied to me n accused me of being sensitive. Y are all these things happening to me when things are back on track everytime?
Tt time after we fought, we were at a loss whether to carry on or juz remain as frenz. In the end, we decided to carry on. But for the past few days, i m not really very happy wif her. She kept comparing herself wif cherie! WTF!! Wat's there to compare! I didnt even compare how she treated me wif her ex. Y is she comparing!! If u wanna compare, dig out all my frenz n ask them personally!! It is onli till yest that things r really slightly going back on track but now, things happened again. R we really meant to be like tt or r we juz too sensitive? I noe she has been trying her very best to keep quarrels to the minimum. She said tt i m taking advantage of all these?!! M i?! Yes. i agree tt these days i m emotional n always start the quarrels. But i m not taking advantage of anything!! She is trying her best not to get jealous over those looking at gers incidents. I noe she is trying her very best n she is very tired. I haf lots of things to tell her. but everytime when i come face to face wif her, i m at a loss of words. i haf lots of things to say to her. But juz dunno how to start. Can someone teach me? I need her. Tt day i was rather happy when she bought a pair of shoes n asked her sales ger to design it with both our names on it. She told me tt i could not run away now. I m wondering, who is the one always trying to leave? Is it me?!! I m not!! Till now i onli shouted break once n after a few hours, i went back to apologised n asked for forgiveness. Is this wat she called taking advantage?!! I noe she dun like gers calling me and everything. I've asked wei zhen, cherie n jacelyn to stop contacting me n all. But y cant she do the same? When i noe she dun like, I tell them immediately. But y cant she?!! Is she taking advantage of the fact tt i will chase her back everytime?
Why is it that we can nv be happy? Y is it that we r proned to quarrels everyday? R we meant to be like tt? Quarrels strengthen a r/s? but muz it till such an extent?
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