OncE a BiTcH 4eVa a BiTcH.. ♥
Once u r a bitch u will forever be a bitch..!!
Dunno wat happen, these few days made me realise tt almost all gers suck..!! There r more n more bitches around these days. However, there will always be 4 females in my heart n they will forever be remembered. They r my grandma, mum, sis n of coz my closest fren, Michelle Soh..!!
Other than the 3 other female memebers in my hse, Michelle played an impt part in my life too. Without her, i will not noe wat life will be. Since sec 1, we have been close to each other till now though drifted a little yeah? But she is not forgotten. No matter wat happen, she is always there for me. She is always there to share my sorrows n happiness. Always there thinking of ways to cheer me up when i m down n oso console me. So much da dao li to say. Like a lao tai po like tt. But everything she said make sense. She is also the onli Mei who remembers my bdae other than the others from my class. Maybe tt shows how she treasure friendship? Felt so guilty when i thought of how i vented my anger on her when i haf problems wif either zhen or sharon in the past. Mei, sorry ar.. mei you zhe me xiao qi rite?? Forgiven le rite? Everytime i made her angry, i haf to sms her though SHE IS JUZ SEATED NXT TO ME..!! Can see how scared of her i m?? Yup.. she is very scary..!! haha... but no matter wat, mei... u will not be forgotten by me n i will always treat u as my closest fren..!! Thanks for coming into my life..!!
2:01:00 AM
Cute Little KiDs n FrieNdLy pAreNts..!! ♥
Crawled up the bed reluctantly today n went down DTE coz meeting Ah Pui for pool. Reached there around 2++ then while walking up, heard my name frm behind. Turned around n saw 3 idiots. Haha.. qiang, shawin n li wei. They went for pool too as they wan to go for Hai Sing's Open House at 4++. Ah Beng oso wanan go. He so old liao n still wanna go for Open House. cant stand him. Today after he closed the shift he rushed over to Hai Sing liao. Dunno y he is so eager. Haha..
Ended up playing pool wif qiang n company instead of Ah Pui. Long time nv play liao.. Had a great time today thrashing them. But when play wif qiang for "LOSER PUNCH".. lost 2-3 for a race to 3.. so sway as i pocketed the black ball in accidentally. Haiz.. Lost like tt so bu gan yuan..!! Everytime we this bunch of monkeys when playing pool will find ppl to talk n comment abt.. Today is no exception..!! A guy n 2 butches became our victims. Tt guy was Edwin frm her class. He was playing over there too, look pro but he isn't can.. Wearing a glove which all pool pros wore made us wonder how pro he is but we were wrong. Then Shawin n Li Wei started to comment liao. "Wear glove sia, pro sia.. i wear durian glove oso can win la.." "No la.. bicycle's glove better la.. nicer..." Then they continued when he wanted to aim a ball n bent down. "Play pool muz wear boxers hor.. then wear glove.." Haiz.. dunno he heard us anot.. But dun gif a damn oso. Haha.. i was concentrating on my game wif qiang. Then they diverted their attention towards 2 butches behind us. Qiang was the first one who shouted, "haiyo, ta men hai xin jia bo shao le liang kuai rou leh.." I heard one of the gers scolded, "KP la.." But they juz continued.. Dun give a damn oso.. Forever like tt one.. But wif them around is fun..!!
Time for work..!! Erm.. Quite relaxed today. I was the onli one mending the whole counter today. Christine was dunno doing wat in the office. Khairul was there today. We tok awhile n suddenly he asked abt the old staff. He oso miss them lots. Yup.. I miss them lots too..!! Miss the fun we all had together..!! Wat made me fed so relaxed today was the smiles n laughters of the kids n their parents..!! The kids were sooooo CUTE..!! Finally today everyone call me kor kor.. Other days every kid call me uncle.. SAD..!! Then all parents were so friendly today oso. Dunno y like tt. Though the games cant be played in some console they didnt complain or anything. They juz patiently asked me to fix for them all tt.. n oso sit there n look at their kids play. Now i realised how fortunate kids r nowadays..!! When do we haf a chance to play such high tech stuffs back to our childhood times rite..?? Some parents came down onli wif the intention to bring the kids down to play. Another parent is better. She came rite down to buy the games back home for her kids. They were so ex but she juz bought them without consideration. She is oso considering buying another crystal set for her kids..!! How nice if my mum or dad can be like her..!! I shun si 2 bucks today..!! A mum came down with her son n wanted to rent a game. But the game was unavailable then he chose another one. His mum juz dun allow n say how bad the game is n say wait for the other one. But he juz wanan play Spiderman..!! So i was there talking to his mum telling her to let her son get tt n she agreed n paid me $10 n i remembered giving her $2 back. But after i settled everything, she said i had not returned her. Wat to do.. Customers always rite. So i gave her another $2. After she left i counted the money n realised i m short of 2 bucks. So bo bian lor.. haf to fork out myself. Nvm la.. Today was high in spirits so nth gonna make me sad or wat..!!
Another thing was Qiang going to start work on MON..!! Most importantly.. Is at X SQUARE too..!! Then at nite he came down again wif jocelyn n 2 other frenz.. Jocelyn n another fren wanan work too. SO i gave them the application form. Then i realised Chrsitine very biased..!! "Guys apply haf to wait for 3 days to get a reply, but ger can work immediately.." was wat christine said to Jocelyn. n yes.. Jocelyn is starting work too on the 5th Nov.. X SQUARE goona become hell one day wif us all working there. But Christine purposely dun put me wif either qiang or Jocelyn saying tt frenz will nv work together coz will not be productive n sit there talking onli..!! So bo bian lor.. she biggest ma.. i cant say anything liao.. N she asked me to train all the new staff till my standard as in can handle all sorts of crowds be it big or small singe handedly before i leave. "Of coz la.. I m trained out by Nora n Sikin one leh..!! U r oso trained out by me one leh.. haha.." i told her.. Now i m looking forward to see how Qiang n Jocelyn r going to suffer there.. see if they can tahan Christine ma.. GOOD LUCK GUYS YEAH..!!
k la.. now wanna go do something for Li Wei liao..!! A bastard is looking for trouble...!! Watch out MARTIN when u r in sch..!! Li Wei.. relax.. I will go find out abt him for u..!!
11:54:00 PM
HappY WorKinG ♥
very long nv blog liao. Lazy to blog n oso no time. Today no work n now nth to do so came in to blog lor. Nth really happened these few days. As per normal, go to work. But yesterday was the day i work so happily.
Woke up late n rush down to work. Luckily i reached there on the dot. If not Christine will sure say me coz she was there playing game though she is not on shift. Lucky me.. Reached there saw Brandon, Jonathan n Kai Ting. Jonathan was so smart in formal. He juz finished his project presentation. When i saw him, the first thing he asked me was.."Ah Hee ar.. exams all fail ar?" I feel like bashing him at tt very moment. But he is those type of ppl who like to joke alot, so i didnt really matter. Then Kai Ting was better to ask how i do. But she oso critisize me for getting C n D for my papers.. Haiz.. Ting.. so wat u got As.. i scared ar? Haha.. Nxt time in sch see me call me ma.. dun cr if i m wif my frenz or wat. Juz call me la. ok? Both she n Jonathan still so "chan mian". Really stick to each other so much sia. Cant stand them. Brandon failed one of his paper. He has to go back n tk sup paper. He went DTE yesterday coz he juz finished his revision lecture so went down to find us. I was like slacking the whole day at work. Coz.. u see ar.. there's 4 workers there, but hor.. there's onli 2 customers. Nth much to do. Azahrie off shift liao. He was playing game then asked me to join him. I played wif him though Christine was there. Haha.. then when she saw, i thought she will KP me. But all she said was, "Wan play pls change or wear a jacket." So bo bian, i wear my jersey over my uniform. Around 8++ like tt, there r still so few customers so I on a station to play Fifa again. 9++ like tt..Terrence came n joined me. He everytime one leh. Ppl playing halfway ask ppl go away let him play. Beng Siong was actually playing wif me. Then terrence came n shoo Beng off. Playing halfway, Kiong came over n asked him join him to smoke so i play wif Beng. Then aunty came in telling us tt NTUC wanna check the electricity all tt n there will be a cut of supply. So ask us to close early. So we close around 10.15. Left there at 10.30, first time fclose so early. What a day of work...!! Play game whole day n close early n get paid. Wat a wonderful job. But of coz.. muz work without her u see..
**TODAY**
Didnt slp the whole nite yesterday. Went to bed at 4++am then was turning n tossing on the bed till 6++. Still cant get to slp, so i was fed up n got up n went out wif my parents n grandma. Went for breakfast, then went to buy some things n deliever the goods to our stall, ya, the Pig Organ Soup stall lor. Proceed to SGH. Ah Ma knee got problem so went there to visit the doctor lor. Maia Lee was on Perfect 10 this morning. The deejays were so sacarstic towards her. As Maia smsed them saying tt she will be late for around 15 mins. The deejays then insultingly asked each others, "How many times should Maia come to our program n how many times does she turn up? Has she always be on time?" something like tt. Maia in the end reached there around 8.12. We reached SGH earlier than the appointment which was at 9. We reached at 8.25 wanan listen to radio using HP but hor, the reception there sucks like nobody biz like tt can.. cant hear a single word can. juz sucks... waited till 9.25 then was Ah Ma's turn n after collecting the medicine all tt was already 10.20. Almost fell asleep on the way back. Dad sent me for a haircut. Wanted a haricut for a long time but always no time. Finally cut it today. Reached hm bathed liao watch TV then online awhiel cant tk it liao. Jump into bed n off to my dreamland n all the way till 6++. Having a slight headache now. Tink tonite muz slp early liao. Supposed to go chalet today but haiz.. abit sian.. then some more tml haf to work cannot ton out if not tml no strength to work.
10:39:00 PM
WorK WorK WorK~~ ♥
It has been quite some time since i last blogged. Have been working these few days. Quite stressed n tired working at X SQUARE. The place has changed so much. Really dun haf the mood to work hard for such work place. haiz...
got back my results today. Luckily all passed. But it's juz passed onli. Better than taking SUP papers. Waste of time. Now can enjoy my holidays with ease liao. Really hate econs. Study so hard still cant score well. Dunno y. Haiz.. Maybe i really dun understand the subject ba. Haiz...
As usual today, working nite shift. Reached there early. Then saw Beng Siong alone at the counter. Christine should start work at 4 but she was late. She herself does not show a good example n expect others to be punctual for work. Haiz.. too bad.. she is the biggest there now. Nobody can talk back to her. Now she is oso treating Beng Siong as a new comer. Pls la... Beng work here longer than u do lor can... For 4 hrs at work, i did not speak a single word to her. It's until when i wanna discuss the schedule for Nov then we started toking. I somehow still angry wif her. Dunno y. Haiz.. I was msging Jacelyn in the evening n she asked me how m i wif Lian. When i told her we ended she scolded me for not telling her. Haiz.. will anyone go around telling others tt he or she is being ditched?? Stupid Jace..!! Sick stay at hm la.. Dun go for Flag Day hor..!! After closing my shift, i went over to Zone X to help Janet they all to shift the game machines. FUCK..!! damn fucking heavy...!! shifted till 12.30 like tt..!! Kiong quarrelled wif Wei Jun..!! Wei Jun everytime one la. Serve him rite. He himself works at Zone X should noe the rules.. 11.45 should be the last game. But 12 plus liao he still playing there. Anyone will be angry la. Not the first time liao. Shared a cab back n tok abt the past wif janet n ben. Realised i miss Jonathan n Kai Ting lots lots. Hope Jonathan will come back soon. Miss his laughters n lame jokes...!! How fun it was to work at X Square last time with Mr Wan, Brandon, Edwin, Danny, Sikin, Nora, Benson, Xiu Lian, Chris NOT CHRISTINE Sharin n Khairil.. Now all r gone.. Left Benson n Xiu Lian.. But Benson has changed alot. This place juz sucks now.
Called Edwin on wed nite. Found out the reason behind the firing of him. It's so unreasonable of Christine. Edwin has to go back for reservice so he could not work for 2-3 weeks. When he come back, he is said to be fired. At first rumours were saying tt he was fired becoz he said he was sick but unable to produce an MC. Now i knew the real reason behind it. Even if he is fired coz of no MC oso very ridiculous. He is juz a part timer. Didnt come to work no pay lor. Need MC one meh.. Mr Wan called yesterday. He was oso fed up when he heard abt the two above reasons. Juz like tt Edwin is fired. All the good staffs r being fired n brought in RUBBISH..!! Bringing in ppl who dun work r wat she is capable of doing. Haiz.. I m going to quit after NOV. Coz i m broke liao. Need an income to support my holidays. SO.. ENDURE...!!! Now Christine stuff has spread to everyone who used to work at X SQUARE DOWNTOWN EAST..!! Brandon called me yesterday n asked me abt her being bossy all tt. Danny knew abt it too. Edwin oso say tt she is not a good staff to work wif. Feel like slapping her when working wif her. I agree with him. Now Mr Wan oso start cursing her. He used to say Christine is a good worker. I told him tt she has not showed her true colours onli. Wait n see. Now he has seen it, he noe wat i meant. Nora, Sikin, n ME r all the good workers who helped Mr Wan lots lots in the past. hehe.. so bhb.. but its true.. imagine me taking over a full timer work load but is onli paid as a part timer.
Haiz.. tink i haf to stop here. If not i will smash the com later. I m getting fed up liao. Really damn fed up..!! haiz...
11:55:00 PM
tReaSuRe uR LoveD OnEs... ♥
tiS is a trUe storY.. a saD love story..The story start wif a guy, name Paul and a girl named Ella..Both of were still students but had already startedto 'fall in love'.. in another words, go steady..In one of the days during their June holidays which they have been waiting for, they met each other at a basketball court.. Coincidentally, they started playing a match wif each other.. they had fun..As Ella knew one of the frens of Paul, she asked for Paul's number.. At tat time, Paul didn't want to fall in love again, after getting so much hurt from the previous one.. Sadly, tat fren of Paul didn't give her the number..
As days went by, the holidays ended.. They met each other at another basketball near Ella's skool.. Day went by and Ella borrowed Paul's hp and missed call her own hp to get his number..Tat very nite, she smsed Paul.. They chatted and had fun.. Till one day, Ella expressed her love forPaul.. Paul loved her much too.. after thinking 4 a long time, Paul thinks tat he and Ella would last,thus, asked her if she would be his partner..Obviously, she agreed..They went steady for one and a half short mths..Ella ended the relationship.. with her parents not allowing her to go steady as a reason.. who on earth would accept tat lame reason? but Paul, likemany other love victims, had no choice but to let go..Years passed and another girl fell in love wif Paul..She was Mary..
Paul and Ella didn't contact for a very long time.. Paul still loved Ella very much.. but nvr had a chance to tell her.. one day, along a street,Paul was wif Mary.. Paul saw a familiar figure across the road.. guess who was tat? it was Ella..Paul ran acrossed the road, without noticing a truck coming.. BANG!! everyone near him crowded around tat area.. Mary screamed as she rushed to Paul.. Ella joined in the crowd.. She remembered the face, one who loved her so much in the past.. Next to him, was Mary.. He wasn't dead.. 'dun give up.. say my name, 100 times,1000 times, a million times.. u're gonna say it till u can finish a million b4 u can stop!!' Mary said to Paul.. with tears in her eyes.. Everyone thought Mary was Paul's girl.. Standing at one side, alone, was a gerl crying.. tat's was Ella who regretted breaking up wif Paul, after recalling how nice Paul treated her in the past..Paul was sent to the Hospital.. Mary and Ella were there..
Praying hard.. An operation was carried out.. Paul didn't survive.. The Doctor came out,shaking his head.. Sighed.. He too, thought tat Mary was Paul's girlfren, thus approached her for an apology for not being able to revive Paul..He said to Mary: "Miss Ella.. your boyfren didn't survive.. he gave himself up after calling your name 157 times.. im sorry.."The Doctor has actually mistook Mary for Ella..Paul was calling out for Ella.. Ella cried in a corner.. She knew why he had stopped at 157..tat was the day she broke wif him..(15/7) she, who ended the relationship which Paul treasured so much, has in turn, ended Paul's life..
IF YOU LOVE SOMEONE DEEPLY.. NVRLEAVE TAT PERSON.. U'LL NVR NOE WHEN U'LL NEED HIM/HER BACK IN YOUR LIFE AGAIN..TREASURE YOUR LOVED ONES..YOU'LL NVR NOE IF YOUR RELATIONSHIP WIF YOUR PARTNER WOULD ACTUALLY MEAN A LIFE TO HIM..
2:51:00 AM
BossY biTcH~~ ♥
17 OctoBeR 2004
juz came back from work not long ago. not really very happy working there at first. reached there saw christine there so fucked up. feel like slapping her. Wilson was late for work as he thot his was scheduled to start at 5 but christine changed his time without telling him. then she was so fucked up. really thot she was the manager like tt.. Mr Wan oso nv like tt tok to us in the past.
"wat time should u start work today?" she asked.
"5 la..!!" Wilson replied.
"u sure 5 ma? u check ur roster.." she debated.
*Wilson took out his roaster n showed her tt it is 5.
"look at the system. i've changed it to 1. didnt u checked? u should check every week."
after hearing this i was damn fed up. WTF~~ change every week n didnt tell the others. wat if the person dun work everyday then he dunno n comes late will oso kena fucked? juz 5 mins in there i already cannot tahan her. i went over to Zone X n complained to Ah Pui. coz i really dunno how i m going to tahan her till the shop close. luckily, she went off at 5. if not i will sure quarrel wif her. i n Wilson very buay song her liao. when she tok to me, i didnt even bother to look at her. i tink i m going to transfer to Zone X liao. Ah Pui say there need ppl for morning shift. she say should be able to be transferred over. juz hope tt christine will let me go over. i rather forgo the extra 50 cents per hour to make myself work happily there.
Mr Wan called today. talked to him n complained how Christine work. realised i m not the onli one who complained to him. many ppl have already complained to him liao. he did not believe tt christine has become so bossy till i told him juz now. now he believes. how i wish Mr Wan is still around. nxt sat meeting him for pool sessions. going to pour my sorrows out soon. maybe nxt sat will be my last day working at X Square oso.
Hui n Fan went down to play again. then they waited for me to knock off n went home together. complained to them on the way home oso. Hui asked me to go Escape work. the pay will be the same as Zone X oso. i m considering it now. dunno lor. juz wish to get out of this fucking X Square ASAP!! working with the rest is alright wif me. but thinking tt i haf to work wif christine makes my blood boils. like at nite working wif wilson n azahrie was so fun. they noe how to joke n everything. this is the first time i slack so much at work. nv in my life i ever slacked while working. i can even sit down n play game wif fan n hui, play game with azahrie.. i dun cr if the HQ ppl come down n see or wat. i dun gif a fuck anymore. fucking sick n tired of working under a FULL TIME WORKER who tinks she is the manager there.
EnDinG wiF: SIan SiaN siaN...!!!
1:30:00 AM
DreaM?? ♥
Dreamt of her last nite. We were behaving so sweetly in the dream. Y is it that we were close tt time such dreams nv appear?? Onli bad dreams appeared. Haiz.. No matter how sweet the dream was, it will onli be a dream. Everything can nv be reversed again. She seems to be happy with her life now. Tink she may haf found herself a better guy now, who noes? Haiz..
Going to work soon liao. Dun feel like going. Sian.. Later haf to see that Christine face. Dunno whether i will quarrel with her anot. Haiz.. Nv expect her to climb so high up within a few mths. All Mr Wan's fault. If he is still around, Christine will not become so bossy. Haiz.. K la.. I gtg liao.. if not late for work le..
EnDinG wif: LiaN.. U will NoT bE ForGotTen..!! tHanX foR tHe HaPPy DayS...
3:18:00 PM
GreaT FooTbaLL ♥
Those misunderstanding with Xue Lian were finally cleared if i m not wrong. Hope it's cleared. But i dun tink she will wan to continue this friendship ours. Haiz..
Had a great soccer match today. Together with Caesar, Fan n Hui, we had some great football after such a long time. Fan cut himself when he tried to climb over the school gate to retrieve the ball n was cut by the barbed wire. Luckily, it's not too deep. Thanks Brother!! Played till around 7.. a bunch of guys came into the court n wanted to challenge us. We won four successive matches. At the 5th match, my leg cramped. I already felt tt it was going to cramp. But wat i found weird was tt i thot my right leg will be the one which cant make it, it was my left leg which let me down during the game. Those bastards who juz came in were so proud of their own skills. They r not tt good n still wanan action. Saw one of them play reminds me of Yi Zheng. He really look like Yi Zheng, tall, long legs, the way he run.. all looks like him. Miss him lots. Another guy from the other team took over my place, n in the end we lost. Haiz... hao cramp bu cramp zai na shi hou cramp.. haiz.. thot finally can play till i shiok liao.. coz normally not so many ppl come n challenge. Today was exception. But i was such a letdown. Blame me for not warming up enuff before the game. haiz... Anyway.. really had some great football since we last played. Brothers.. after ur exams, we shall continue again..!!!
11:44:00 PM
~~DownTowN EasT~~ ♥
15 OctoBeR 2004
wat do i actually wan?? wat m i thinking? y do i still think of her? y do i still miss her?? arghh... all the question marks floating in my mind... i should be angry wif her but yet... i still miss her so much. y m i like tt?? i hope i noe the ans.. haiz..
was at downtown east whole day today. Went there with the intention to book the chalet for both my poly n sec sch class gathering. The poly chalet is for a few ppl, so i m not tt concerned, my main concern is about my sec sch class gathering chalet. Tried to book yesterday but they need an IC of someone above 18. Today they told me muz the person above 18 to go down personally. WTH~~ i was like arguing with the ppl there. They were the ones who told me they needed an above 18 IC.. now they dun allow me to book. think grace can be my witness, she was there with me yesterday. Fed up..!! In the end, with the help of Christine, i managed to book the poly one with my chalet voucher. Sorry 4A frenz.. i still cant get ours.. they need my mum to be there as i need to book it with the union card so its much much cheaper. dun worry... i will get it ASAP..!!
played pool for the whole afternoon.. played till broke liao.. lolx.. but had great fun. I finally won $5.50 from the scratch n win.. i m still waiting for my $15.50 value one.. hehe.. went satay club for dinner. The food there was quite ex but tasted not bad so its alright. Wild PIG no.1 was still not full. so we proceeded to the food court. the ae another big plate of nasi padang!! i n fan was stunned to see him eat so much. wah..!! fan... u r a pig.. COZ hui finished the whole plate of rice!!
went to my workplace, X SQUARE to play after dinner. xiulian, benson n another new staff, wilson. oh ya... dunno for wat reason, i was attracted to Xiu Lian. Since the very first day i saw her n working wif her, i was attracted to her. too bad.. she has a bf.. was joking with her at X SQUARE the whole nite. Christine n Benson was our topic. Rumours were spreading saying tt Christine like Benson n somehow vice versa. Heard tt Christine has become very bossy after Mr Wan was being terminated. She was once my disciple can.. Still remember I was the one who taught her everything in the outlet. And she was so inactive n lazy to learn things at tt time. But now.. everything she oso wan to get involved. She tends to treat herself as a manager at our outlet. Getting herself involved in management meeting, writing of proposals, not being at the outlet for most of the time r factors showing tt she is treating herself as manager. Thot is was not true. After seeing her with my own eyes, i realised it is all true. I wondered how life would be when i start work on Sunday. Ah Beng coming back to DTE oso. But will any of the staff listen to him like how they did in the past? I m wondering. Took 2 puffs of cigarette from Xiu Lian. Until today then i realise she smokes. Haiz.. Gers nowadays.. Haiz..
The 2 guys were so addicted to Fifa 2005 tt we played till 11.30. Fan was saying tt he wanna go down to play during holidays n acc me till 2am n wait for me to knock off. Tink he is crazy over it. Now, he is playing Fifa 2004, PC version at hm. He is really mad liao. He is like still relaxing himself so much when exams are around the corner. Ppl r already mugging at home everyday but he is playing everyday. Brother... start mugging..!! Hui u too... O levels are juz 2 weeks away!!
ALL THE BEST BROTHERS..!!
2:26:00 AM
GoinG NuTs..!! ♥
frenz are important.. but more importantly.. choose ur frenz wisely...
many things haf happened these few days. they r makeing me go nuts. haiz.. firstly.. being fooled by HER... broke after a day.. fun yeah? haiz.. tt one over le nvm.. secondly, how i find out things. she got angry n almost cant even secure our friendship. tried my best n secure it. thirdly, smsed me yesterday asking me to scold her which i cant do tt without a reason. i called michelle n confirm things. n coz of this, she not happy. fine... this is over too.. i thot it was the end.. BUT... NO..!! things have not ended..!! today was enjoying myself, received a sms frm her. she asked wat r the things michelle noe. i haf already made myself very clear of wat chelle knew yesterday nite yet she is asking me again. i wondered so wat if chelle noes?? haf to kick a big fuss out of it? i really dunno wat she is thinking..
i m not sure if we can still secure our friendship anot which i doubt is possible. there r reasons for y i felt so.. sms her.. no replies.. msn.. no replies.. ask her y no reply.. "i m away juz now" in friendster, contact deleted. "i intend to delete the A/C but got some testimonials there....." it is obvious man.. the rest haf not be deleted n onli like CERTAIN PPL ones r deleted.. i dunno whether it is true anot lor.. juz wonder y muz she makes thing become so jue.. used to like.. talk things together.. share our happiness n sorrows together.. but now?? things haf turned so sour..!! will anyone wan such a painful ending?? i doubt anyone will want it..
11:58:00 PM
MilliONs oF aPoLoGieS~~ ♥
things have turned out to be so ugly... i cant believe tt we cant even be frenz... haiz.. i really dunno wat to do...
on my way out to dinner wif hui, francis n caesur.. received a msg frm her.. then after a while things turned ugly..!! i haf lost another close fren.. dun wish this to happen but it had happened.. no matter wat i say, i cant save our friendship. muz things become so sour?? can anyone tell me wat to do?? so wat if we cant be together?? cant we juz be frenz? haiz.. i m very fan now..!!! maybe i should not be around so tt there will not be so much troubles. find tt i m always causing troubles for everyone around me. ARGHHH..!!!! SORRY SORRY SORRY..!!
i wanan apologise to the ppl who has been thru this trouble wif me.... SORRY SORRY SORRY..!!! millions of sorry cant help anything, but i sincerely wan to apologise to all of u. brothers r there saying buddies r more important than gers n i agree. frenz r more important. but i haf lost another fren again. haiz... YYYY???!!!
11:32:00 PM
[DuN TaKe tHinGs FoR GraNteD] ♥
i heard things very true when i was feeling down tt day.. now i m going to share with everyone what i've heard on tt day
"be contented with what u r having rite now.. one should not be too greedy.. as wat the chinese sayings stated.. "dun wear such a big hat on a small head"... dun ask for more.. always thinking that someone will still accept u is not a good thing.. forgoing something more precious then come to regret it in the end is called "stupidity"
dun ever take things for granted.. u may not encounter such things everytime.. zuo ren yao zhi zhu.. bu neng tai tan xin.. be true to others.. tink for others before u make any decisions..
saying sorry sometimes dun mean anything.. what's the point in saying sorry after the hurt is being done.. if sorry is so useful, in this world there will not be anymore law enforcers around.. lawyers will oso lose their job ..
frenz r for u to use in onli GOOD way.. n not bad one.. dun tk their cr n concern over u for granted.. friendship n kinship r something that cant be bought by money.. no matter how much money u haf.. without friends n family.. u r a loser.. treat everyone beside u truly n u will be treated truly too.. be sincere.. be yourself.. do not wear a mask in front of others.."
hope that after reading all these.. everyone will start to tink of how u haf treated those around u who have been caring n loving u all these while.. "haf u been treating them badly", "haf u been taking them for granted?", ect... such qns should pop up in ur mind.. start thinking..
2:05:00 AM
THanKs aLoT~~ ♥
things come n go without me realising how fast it was.. it took a full 3 mths to come but it juz took a duration of 26 hours to go... feeling quite down after it was gone... didnt expect it to be so fast.. really damn sad.. but now.. i xiang tong le... with the help of fan n hui.. thanks brothers.. n also most importantly... my "psychiatrist".. hehe.. always there for me when i m down... hehe thanks ppl..!!
went for dinner wif fan yesterday.. tok to him abt wat happened.. showed him the msg.. he very lame.. say nxt time he's going to invent a something to prevent ppl frm dreaming... stupid lamer.. then hui afternoon msged me asking me if i haf gf ar... i replied.."yup.. haf.. tt was yesterday.. today everything gone liao.. no more.. i m single again.. tell u wat happen when u come my hse.." everybody see the msg le oso dunno wat to say... they juz shook their head... imagine me waking up seeing such a msg.. wat reaction should i haf?? haiz.. wat's over is over.. forget it... bu neng wan hui le... cant be couple still can be frenz..
at nite called my "psychiatrist".. told her wat happened she oso react the same way... n somewhat scolded me oso.. lolx.. xi guan le.. everytime kena scolded by her one... so many yrs liao.. so i xi guan le.. lolx.. got to noe something which i was somehow kept in the dark lor... felt cheated n fooled.. but nvm.. i will forgive n forget... hehe..
now tt everything's is over.. shall look forward to life n do well in other things in future.. no girls wont die one ma.. still got frenz around me.. brothers n mei.. thanks alot.. n oso my family members n cousin... thanks everyone...
1:00:00 AM
EverYtHinG is GonE..!! ForEveR GONE..!!! ♥
woke up at 1++ today n went to on hp... hp batt empty today then realised.. eagerly waiting for darling's msg... finally received her msg.. n my heart immediately sank after tt..!! EVERTHING IS GONE AFTER A DAY..!! haf not even spedn any precious wif u n everything is gone.. the msg is this... nth added on or cut... "Morni dear.. dear.. yesterday i had a weird dream.. very weirds.. Haix.. dear ar.. i wish to be single can? but i still love u.. jus tat i scare of relation.. cos of yesterday tat dream.. haix.." all becoz of a dream n everything is gone juz like tt... she is scared tt she will get hurt again.. but no matter how many times i assure her.. nth can change her mind.. since a mth ago i haf been assuring her till now.. but she is still scared.. i haf nth to say.. maybe she has not totally forgotten abt him.. or wat.. i oso not sure.. really dunno wat else to say when i received this msg.. wat else can u say..?? for any normal person who see this msg after juz one day will react the same way i did agree?? been waiting so long for this day n when it finally comes.. it goes after a day.. haiz.. "cheer up" n "dun tink so much" r the words she said... i wondered if she can do it if she is me... really very sad n disappointed.. i m not going to believe in all these anymore.. everything juz sucks.. long time nv has such feeling liao.. took a long time to recover after sharon.. n now it's all back again... HAO XIN KU..!!
EnDinG: HaF u ReaLLy LoVeD mE???
4:55:00 PM
08/10/04~~12:21 P.M ♥
08 October 2004 has become an important date for me to remember frm now onwards... after so long of perseverance.. the day has finally come..!! i was so happy today afternoon at 12:21 PM while having lunch with my frenz.. recieved a msg frm darling saying that i will haf the chance to tk cr of her...!! THANKS DARLING..!! MUACKZ..!! LOVE U VERY MUCH..!! MUACKZ..!! i promise u i will dui ni hao hao.. but as i told u.. such things cannot be juz one sided..it need two hands to clap... so darling... u too wor?? muackz..!! i will not the unhappy things to happen to u again..!! TRUST ME..!! MUACKZ.. I MISS U VERY MUCH..!!
2:47:00 AM
HappY HaPPy n sTiLL HaPPy..!! ♥
woot~~ i can finally blog.. something was wrong with my com juz now.. n i wasted so much of my time to mend it.. haiz.. sad.. cant even haf a good chat with her...
EXAMS R FINALLY OVER..!! have been waiting for this day for so looongg....!! coz there might be great news for me or even bad news for me after my last paper, econs... hehe.. but it all turn out GREAT..!! the econs paper today was good... i lost 20 marks by juz forgeting the formulae for output n cost... haiz.. 20 marks gone with the wind... luckily i did the last yerm paper last nite n it helped me alot today..!! though i still face some problems handling some of the qns.. still find the paper ok... really put in lot sof effort in this.. n if fail again... hope this time no more careless mistakes.. i really dunno wat else i can say... i m stupid?? or i still dun understand the subject well enuff?? WHO CRS..!! exams r over..!! should get wild now..!! have become a panda since the exmas started.. so now.. i m going to tk revenge... going to break my record of 14 hrs tml..!! hehe...
after the paper.. went TM for Seoul Garden with a group of frenz..(grace, qiang, jacelyn, ming wei, eve, pam, vanessa[neh neh], kelly, juanna, jason n ben) mostly gers n onli the 4 boys.... had a great time there... i, qiang, n jacelyn were busy eating.. but grace was there.. haiz.. so bhb.. keep taking photos of herself using my hp.. with her pooh bear.. now my hp is ful of hers n her pooh's pics.. OMG~~ gonna bring my fone for servicing one day... she is like my darling... going around taking pics using others' fone.. lolx.. cant stand grace... my batt actually full bar.. let her play till left wif 4 bars... power sia... after we had our fill... the gers started a game.."zhong ji mi ma" (hope i m rite..) the forfeit is nth great.. juz drinking n eating food on the table... i n qiang very di siao.. we went to mix something for the losers to drink... we added lots of chilli into the soup n a slice of orange n let it boils... gave them a bowl to play but they dun dare to drink.. unless i n qiang join in.. haiz.. in the end.. they did not get the chance to drink.. qiang is the one who suffered for wat he has done.. he lost n has to drink the hot n spicy soup which cannot be drank..!! lolx..!!
went to watch white chicks wif qiang, ben n jason after the gers left... not sporting one leh... some go dating.. jace go hm slp.. grace go to work.. left we 4 guys.. haiz.. the show "white chicks" is so damn funny..!! the 4 of us were laughing throughout the whole show... can nv stop laughing... GREAT SHOW..!!
went hm after the show n left for hm after putting my bag... met huai n fan for some pool games AGAIN..!! saw darling at interchange while on my way to meet them.. while toking to her.. her frenz were like having weird looks on their faces??? i oso dunno... maybe i too sensitive?? nvm la.. as long as i m happy, darling is happy can liao.. hope darling is happy..!!
on our way to simei, met pei sin on the MRT.. she has juz finished her promos... she looks like a panda too..!! all becoz of the exams..!! ALL EXAMS' FAULTS..!! humans becoming pandas..!! haiz.. played till 9++ then went to Simpang Bedok for dinner.. the things there was okok onli lor.. but hor.. the ppl there anyhow calculate the prices one.. sometimes collect $1each for a drink sometimes colect $0.80 for the similar drink.. WTH~~ this way of doing business..!! dun cr la.. juz fill up my stomach can liao... wait for other customers to complain them ba.. hehe.. bad.. anyway.. very happy today..!!!
EnDinG: HaPPY~~~!!!!
1:18:00 AM
FucKinG bLuR n sTupiD..!! ♥
ARGHHH...!!! damn fed up today...!! juz took my OB paper few hours ago.... the paper simply sucks.. those i've studied did not come out much... then i was fucking blur... ccb~~ section c needs me to choose 2 qns frm 3 to ans... but this stupid me... went to do all 3 qns... what makes me feel even worse was tt... the qn which i can score the most marks is the last qn.. n yet.. i tink it has to be deleted.. i nv read instructions...!! FUCK..!! haiz.. dunno wat has gotten into me juz now... stupid.. it's all too late... juz pray hard then can merely juz pass.. I DUN WAN SUP PAPER..!! haiz...
fri will be my last paper liao.. econs ar.. sian diao le... mid term test has made me hate econs so much.. but still haf to put in lots of efforts in it.. coz its so impt can.. so muz remember to read the instructions carefully liao... zhen de hen hu tu... since when i m in pri sch i haf been so careless till now.. coz i simply hate to read instructions... see qns juz ans liao.. dun gif a fuck to wat is to be done.. now regret le.. muz read instructions nxt time round..!!
i m thinking of something rite now.. tinking whether i should pop the qn again today or wait till after exams.. haiz.. i oso dunno... can anyone tell me?? i juz cant wait for the day to come... i m so eagerly waiting for the it to come true.... haiz...
6:19:00 PM
WooT..!! ♥
WooT... !! finally CSA is over..!! so happy..!! the paper was ok.. the chapters which i studied all came out in MCQs.. stupid sia.. haiz.. luckily today morning i did flipped thru the rest of the notes before leaving the hse.. got stuck on some qns.. but the paper was quite smoothly done... n finally its ok.. left 2 more to go..!! JIA YOU..!! OB will be much easier to study than CSA..
today morning was sucky... stomach still feeling abit bu shu fu.. then felt like vomiting.. dunno y oso.. so sucky.. wanna study oso cannot.. too tired n too sick... flip thru the notes then lie on the bed n watch tv.. left the hse at 1.15.. the weather is damn fucking hot today.. the bus was so packed oso.. then i was seated nxt to an indian guy.. then dunno y..he smell... dunno how to explain the smell.. but it's obviously not a pleasant smell.. btw.. I M NOT RACIST.. juz cant tahan the smell lor..
sat for the paper halfway thru felt like vomiting again.. then i ren.. so xin ku sia... haiz.. then the 2 stupid fellows.. grace n xiao qiang.. U TWO BETTER WATCH OUT..!! they finished the paper early n was standing outside the room.. grace kept pointing the middle finger n asking me to hurry up.. i heck cr abt her.. taking my own sweet time checking thru my script.. haha.. when i came out.. they were gone.. they waited for me downstairs then acc me to canteen for lunch.. tt grace actually booked a room in the lib to study wor..!! MIRACLE..!! after she took the room's key then we went to drink bubble tea.. i n qiang felt so stupid sia.. walking to n fro frm sch to the bubble shop back to sch n back to the bubble tea bus stop.. we acc grace back n intend to tk bus there.. but the bus took so long to come so we went to tk 291.. fucking hot weather...
going to study soon... OB paper at 2 again..!! can slp late late again..whahhaha..!!
To BaO BeiXxx...!!..!!
Bao bei.. wo hao xiang ni.. thanks alot for showing the care n concern when i m not feeling well... felt so touched..!! muackz..!! muz study hard hard wor..!! dun gif up n be lazy hor... guai ar.. muackz..!! so good got such a big mashi maro to acc u...!! i oso wan..!! hehe.. muackz.. JIA YOU WOR..!! all the best to u for the rest of ur papers..!!
10:35:00 PM
Loving someone... ♥
Loving someone means u haf to be wif tt person?? No matter how much u say u love tt person or how much u miss him/her everyday... u dun wanna be wif him/her is also happy?? i always tink tt making tt person to stay by ur side is loving her... but it needs two hands to clap in order to produce sound... so if she dun wan.. i oso cant say anything.. so seeing her happy is loving her.. but i will not gif up waiting.. still hoping miracle will happen n change ur mind.. muackz...
EsPeciaLLy 4 U..!!
wo hao xiang ni... no matter wat.. u r always by my side to encourage me n cheer me on... thanks a million..!! muackz..!! hehe... ur bird nest factory huh?? hehe... u havent buy me the birds.. so havent set up the factory.. hehe.. i m lame.. lolx.. mad liao...
1:08:00 AM
[One DoWN...] ♥
woo.. juz reached hm.. juz sar for my accounts papers this morning... erm... the paper was rather alright.. juz tt some of them i forgot to go n study then dun really noe how to do.. esp those theory qns.. all i anyhow write.. hope the calculations all done correctly.. can pass can liao.. dun expect much anymore... always hoping for an A.. but now.. tink its useless.. juz pass n let me proceed to 2nd sem is enuff... one paper down n 3 more to go.. tml CSA worse still.. dunno how.. till now havent study much.. i hate memorising things.. its nv my forte..
during the paper.. she was juz seated 2 seats away from me.. i juz cant keep my eyes off her during the paper.. after i finished the paper.. i keep looking at her.. then the ger nxt to me thot i kept looking n stared at me.. so malu.. lolx..
after the paper.. went KFC wif qiang... ming wei, jason n ben joined us after tt.. all 5 of us crapping over there... the KFC tray paper has some diagrams on hand signs.. n jason n ming wei keep making fun of the signs.. i dunno how to explain.. it's juz damn funny.. jason n ming wei were arguing over something.. jason cant win her then ask her go bang the wall... stupid jason.. crap onli.. no logic one... lose liao ask ppl go bang the wall... frm this i conclude tt dun ever argue wif gers....
1:32:00 PM
When will the day come?? ♥
haiz.. when will the day come?? u told me it will be soon... but how soon is it?? i dunno... haiz.. u asked me the qn.. wat i will do if u become beng kui.. my ans will always be the same.. will stay be ur side to tk cr of u.. haiz.. u say u r scared tt u will treat me bad if we r together.. i really dunno wat else i can say.. haiz.. all i m thinking rite now is when will the day ever come... how i wish i can hold ur hand n walk on the beach one day.. or watch the sun rise or sun set wif u n many many others.. haiz.. but WHEN WILL ALL THESE COME TRUE?? i dunno..!! onli u noe..
1:06:00 AM
sTreSSeD..!! ♥
woke up late in the afternoon today.. dunno y so tired.. need to replenish the slping hrs lost yesterday... wanted to study but not motivated at all.. watched tv n online the rest of the afternoon... went dinner wif fan n hui at nite.. didnt went jogging wif them today as i wanted to watch "dou yu".. today last episode le.... I FINALLY GOT MY DOU YU VCD LIAO..!! mum bought it for me... muackz.. I LOVE U MUM..!! i found a song very meaningful n the lyrics r very nice... erm.. "bu gong ping" from jenny yang.. its a soundtrack in dou yu... very nice.. go n listen... mum making yan wo now... yeah.. can drink yan wo again..!! YUM YUM..!!
EndinG: Very stressed.. dunno wat to do..!!
11:58:00 PM
