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Very tired today.
Did my things till around 5 last nite.
Slept 3 hours and met Jason.
Headed to CPF building Tampines to hand in our timesheet.
Breakfast at mac.
Went to gym after that.
Finally gyming again after so long.
Wanted to head home to rest or continue with my things.
But thinking of the lack of fun for almost one week.
Cabbed down to safra.
Bowled and number ball-ed!!
Nick called for Mahjong.
Cabbed down to Ah Da's hse for 2 sessions of mahjong.
First was with Jason, Nick and Ah Da.
Second was with Ah Da and his brother as the other two have to work and attend theory lesson.
Ending my day with my winnings from the two sessions.
Had a great day!
Going to have great food this coming weekend again.
Hope things will go smoothly.
Payday on Friday!! More n more money!!!!
Yipee!!!
12:44:00 AM
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Very tired!!!
Met michelle for shopping yest afternoon.
N she was late for 1 hour.
Went to get the watch and shopped around.
We had donuts. Suntec one can just buy 2 in another queue. Like that better.
Bus-ed down to Far East.
I could not control her from spending.
Just waited for her to buy her stuffs outside the shop and be her advisor.
Took 518 back to TP. She meeting him.
Cabbed back from TP.
Was telling sis that I m going to drop dead when I reached home.
But I still stayed up till 4++ doing things again. Sis should noe wat..
Sian.. Dragged myself out of bed today for work.
No mood to work.
Just slacked and joked around.
Went to eat snake for one hour without anyone noticing.
Tml is my freaking last day!!!
Can finally enjoy slping during weekends again!!
To tt someone:
Drink more water. N rest early.
Dun become a sick panda.
I miss you...
Be careful dun choke on the seeds... hehe.
12:58:00 AM
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Woke up late in the afternoon again.
Met sister at chup lao for dinner.
And sat there and chatted till around 9 and left for home.
Stupid Jocelyn called juz now and ask me wat happened.
Said my mum called her and told her I am weird these days.
Ask why am I feeling so depressed.
Da jie. Tink of a better lie next time.
But anyway.. Thanks for your concern. I am alright.
I will let it out if I really can't take it anymore.
No worries k?
Sometimes, things which should be let go, we should let go.
Do not think of it anymore.
Facing any problems, say it out. Do not bottle it up.
Thats the advice you gave me.
Why aren't you not doing the same thing?
Be strong alright? I will be there for you no matter what happens.
I will nv leave you alone!!
1:42:00 AM
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Firstly, Happy Belated 20th Birthday to Jacelyn aka Sotong Lim.
These days have been damn tired.
Having late nights every nite,
meaningful though.
Lazy for gym too.
Juz went once on mon.
Got pulled up for number balls before gym.
Wasted money again.
Woke up in the late afternoon yesterday.
Was feeling so hungry and waiting for dad to bring food back.
Who knows he juz brought a pathetic bowl of porridge back from school.
Met her for our 4th movie, Die Hard 4 at TM.
Had a jumbo combo and nachos combo for her.
And thats the last meal for me last night.
Woken up by Linksys staff.
Fuck up.
Ask me go all the way down to collect the scratch and win cards.
Who the hell is going to pay for my transport.
Think I am very free.
Should have just pass it to the outlet.
I dun give a fuck.
Replied saying I dun have time but no replies received.
Was to lazy to wake up for gym.
Was couldn't pull myself up when I thought of the threadmill and weights.
But call from Nick and Jason made me jumped out of bed IMMEDIATELY.
MAHJONG!!!
But was feeling so damn hungry.
Bought food up to Ah Da's house and played till around 7.
Nick has to leave for work.
Met Jocelyn at coffee shop for dinner and headed home.
Juz feeling very weird today.
Was very quiet today.
J couple kept complaining about me.
Say I am very weird today.
I admit I am.
Get very irritated with people around me very easily.
Every little thing they do or say irritates me.
I dunno why.
Help me...
Only you can help me...
My sis is feeling upset.
Dun tink so much mei.
He's just to occupied with FYP.
Two more weeks and he will be done with it.
Two more weeks to be spent before he becomes botak after that.
Remember what I told you tt time?
Being frenz and couple can be very different.
Now you know what I mean?
Dun always get upset le alright?
Anything just give me a call ok?
Dun make my fone become a dummy set.
And to someone out there...
I wish to see more of ur smiles.
Dun tell me you are lazy to smile.
It's just an excuse.
NO MORE EXCUSES.
There will be ups n downs among frens.
Just take your time to settle the differences.
Dun get upset becoz of such things.
If not how can you see how strong the friendship is right?
11:55:00 PM
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this fucking piece of shit cost me 200 dollars! fuck it!!
Due to my laziness, I chose a nearer place to smoke rather than the usual place outside pet safari. With no dustbin around the place, I shot my half finished cig on the floor and rushed back to Challenger. N tt fucker actually walked faster than me with a fucking big backpack. Was curious why this fucker is walking so fast behind me all the time through the reflection of the glass door. I was then stopped and shown the NEA pass!! Fuck it!! God is so kind to me... I was still thinking of how to spend my money. And this fucking paper actually spared me a few more strands of white hair.
11:05:00 PM
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Very tired. Mahjong till this morning. It's so nice to return home only in the morning. Miss the feeling.
Slept till around 5 and met Michelle.
She treated me to frog porridge dinner.
Had tou hua for dessert
I bought her durians which she felt we got cheated. Most importantly, they are nice.
Thanks sis.
Mei.. Dun worry. I am alright. Just dunno why these days just to seem very quiet. That's all. No worries. Just have to worry about how you are going to "hong" him. Nv do such thing again. Even if it happens again, dun tell him. HAhahaha...
11:32:00 PM
Memories.. ♥
Stayed at home for the rest of the day after reporting. The time is used to think of many things. Many things were being recalled.
In life, many people come and go. You may gain some things and lose some things too. My thoughts went all the way back to Pri school days.
Primary school days were so fun. Boys have to look up at girls while talking to them. Running down the stairs and straight to the basketball court for soccer without any food. Attending classes in our sweat soaked uniforms. Disturbing teachers, screaming and playing in class. How innocent we were back then. There's this bunch of guys whom walked through the days in Primary school days with me. Desmond, Zheng Lin, Chee Fan, Yi Zheng, Jerome, Saiful, Reuben. These are the notorious ones in the class and the jokers. Nobody can stand our group esp Zheng Lin. N not forgetting the girls whom we like to disturb. Melody, Wei Li, Mei Tong, Charmaine, Ginger, Audrey, Yuet Ling and Pei Sin. And special thanks to Mei Tong who have accompanied me through two wonderful years. People always say that first love is the most memorable one and I totally agree with it though we were so young that time. But that was the only time when we don't have to worry so much. N you not looking down on me when I am so fat that time. Don't know if you are reading this. If you are, all the best to you and him.. Dun forget my invitation alright? N oso.. no more hatred towards caroline k? Give me face yeah? LOL! Thanks to the buddies whom walked through those wonderful years together.
All of them got separated except Yi Zheng and Chee Fan. We were posted to the same school and got transferred together as well. 3 of us were always together during Sec 1. Lunch together and back to my house basketball court to meet the rest for soccer. We were nv separated until Sec 2. I was the bastard who did not spend much time with them as was attached. Drifted away from Chee Fan though. Yi Zheng was still with me most of the time as our gfs were "sworn" sisters. Things were different during Sec 3 as all three of us weren't in the same class anymore. No more soccer, no more lunch. Onli after badminton trainings we will go for dinner together.
New frenz were also made during those days in BN. First girl who caught my eyes was of course my dearest mei. N she has always been the one whom I vented my anger on and the one who listen to all my rantings. Always there to console me. Crapping in msn, smses. Even though she is sitting next to me in class, I will still sms her. Juz too bo liao. Guy frenz needless to say would be the 4 bastards-Dan, Azri, Aloy, Alfiyan and Wee Loong, Izuan, Wei Siong and Sze Kiat. 9 of us will always be the noisiest in class and we are the jokers. It is more of a nuisance to our teachers during lesson time.
And to the 3 girls I was with during those days. Thanks for all the memories.. Zhen. U too.. Dun forget about my invitation.. No worries for sharon as she is the strongest and happily married already. Most worried one is still Caroline who is like a sotong. Being bullied oso just keep quiet and dunno wat has happened. It was a mistake to end it tt time. Even now she is still saying that if that time not before of that moment of folly, we might still be together now. Everything is fated.
4 years of my youth were spent in BN. Frenz were made but come to tink of it, there's only one close friend.
Spent the 3 dreadful years in TP or should I say 2. Really enjoyed myself during year 1. Being so carefree and going out with whoever I want. No worries at all. Becoz I was still not attached at that time. Have no problem talking to girls and getting close with them. No problems during project meetings. Can always attend those meetings and get involved with school events too. Ming Wei, Jacelyn, Vanessa, Poh Ying, Six, and of coz brother Gracie. And of coz the bunch of Hai Sing guys. Things were different in Year 2 but was still alright. Just lesser time spent together and there might me be heated arguments between me n cherie. But we were given the space we wanted and trust was there except towards Jacelyn. I've felt that J has suffered alot all these while. But we were still as close. The feelings were there but nobody dare to make the first move.
Things were quite bad in Year 3. First, things turned bad between ming wei n myself due to an argument during a project discussion. Then slowly drifted away from J as Steph knew about my feelings for her in the past. Till now, I still dun understand why Jacelyn has to be treated as an enemy. It's all in the past. Things were alright in the beginning until some mistakes were made and things turned ugly. But whose fault, bystanders should understand better. Frenz left one by one as most of the time was spent with her. She has no trust hence things were really hard back then. No meeting of the guy frenz. SIP days were only lunchboxes in the office alone for almost 3 months. There wasn't any peace even when I am rushing my major project due to her sensitivity and being unreasonable. I kept quiet. Sometimes even finding all sorts of excuses to escape from meetings. What's the big deal when I am in an all girls' group for project. I have tried it once in Year 1 and things were very good and none of us got hooked. Only Yang know how I feel back then as things were all said to him. But sometimes it's very irritating to talk to him about all these as he likes to give stupid ideas.
Now, he's gone too. What has happened? Nobody knows. We wish to know so we can do something. But Jason and I are really helpless.
N for her.. I also felt so helpless. Wat should I do to make her overcome herself? Hope things will get better when time goes by.
Looking back, there are only regrets. But all these thoughts, I've told myself something...
"Learn to treasure what you have now."
"You might not know when you will lose them."
11:29:00 PM
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Going to surrender my pink IC on 9 October. So sian. Still thought of planning overseas trip with J couple and her next yr. But the plans have to be held back for now. 2 yrs later, we will go...
Why muz i be posted to SCDF while others to SAF. WTF la!! WHY!!! Ppl play with rifles, i play with water hoses!! Irritating!!!
11:48:00 PM
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Feel random now.
Going to fall sick soon. The feelings sucks. I'm like forever not having enough slp. Slp earlier last nite. Was really very tired last nite. Woke up in the middle of the night by a nightmare. I m still feeling tired now thought I just woke up.
Been working during the weekends. Wat a boring job. Stand till my heels were aching like hell.
On fri, had dinner at east coast and had our mahjong session. On sat, met her at TM for dinner after work. Seem that there's left with one shopping centre in S'pore and everyone is crowding in TM. Things were made clear on Sat and I just haf to go with it. Not going to do anything much again. Let the pace slow down.
That's all for now..
3:25:00 PM
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My blog finally have a new look. First time I changed blogskin myself. Was waiting for her to finish her project. Very bored. In the end, it was done with a new look and song.
3:09:00 AM
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Fever has been hitting on many people these day. My youngest cousin was hit by it followed by elder brother. Hope both of them are alright now. N the same illness made me spent one and a half hour idling at MCYS today. My PO is late for our appointment as her 3 kids are all having fever. And she has to bring them to the doctor. It must be due to the damn weather in Singapore which caused all these young kids to fall ill. And also those irresponsible fellows ignore the stagnant water there for days, months which has caused some death in this little red dot country. Enough of my rantings.
Headed home after the appointment which lasted for just 5 mins. WTF!! N have to go back again next week. Was supposed to meet J couple at Orchard but was having slight headache and did not hear the phone ring. Hence, slacked at home till evening and went down to Simpang Bedok for dinner. She cant make it tonight as she has slept for juz an hour due to project. But she is still not forgotten. Bought her share and had the J couple acc me down to her hse and passed to her. Usual number ball at safra after that and headed home. Down on luck these days. Haven't been winning in anything for months already. Sucks!! MONEY NOT ENUFF!!!!
11:49:00 PM
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Feeling great today. Hope I will always feel this way.
Met her at TM in the afternoon and caught Fantastic 4. It is the third movie we have watched together. It's a nice show.. But it makes it better when I noe who I am watching with. Had our lunch at foodcourt after the show as that silly ger juz had nuggets after her lesson. Went back to school to meet Jason after lunch. If I noe that he can't leave at 4, I would have sent her home first. Haiz.. And after meeting him, things gets back into the usual routine... Gym, dinner and home. Wat a life. But it's more meaningful today!!
12:00:00 AM
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Was waken up by my mum this morning to lunch out with parents and aunt's family. It's my aunt's bdae today. Happy birthday auntie!! Went for dim sum. It have been so long since I've ate dim sum le.. Love it so much!! Gonna eat it again soon.
Met Tiff and J couple at 5 and headed down to Carlton Hotel for buffet. Its said to be a durain buffet but it ended up being just a normal dinner buffet with durian desserts. Nothing special except for the extra open space where the 4 of us can eat durians. 4 of us got so bloated. Never eat durians after a heavy meal. Lol!
Sat outside Raffles City for a puff and the J couple started cam whoring. We took a group photo and, today I took a third photo with her. Shopped around Raffles City. Able to see yet unable to own the things. And one thing.. DAMN the GST hike!!! Ciggs is selling at 11.60 per pack!! WTF!!!!
Wanted to send her home but all the damn empty cabs didnt bother to earn more money tonite. In the end, she has to go home on her own due to my TR and I reached home at 10.30. J couple just went home not long ago. Poor Jason. He's broke. But that bastard still suggest that we will have Marche next week. In the end, we decided on just East Coast Lagoon food will do. More food to come!!!
1:03:00 AM
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Ended my night in an emo state. I dunno why myself. This aside, has a tiring day today.
Cabbed down to Jason's hse in the morning. Helped to shift his things to his grandma's house in the afternoon. So many things to move. Its not easy to move to a new place. Things were done at late afternoon. Borrowed his uncle's pickup. First time had a hard time playing with the gear ever since I got my license coz the vehicle was quite an old one. Though it's tiring for the legs, manual cars are still better than auto cars. But it did saved us lots of time and money on cab. Sent them back home for a quick shower. Headed down to Harbour Front as Nick wanted to book a slot for sky dining on Kailing's bdae. Dinner at Subway and back to Jason's hse. Everyone had a tiring day today. Today will make up for this week's gym which I've missed.
Gonna head to bed now. More updates to come..
2:40:00 AM
this fucking piece of shit cost me 200 dollars! fuck it!!
