*cHeRish y0ur [l0vEd] oNes* Im Gay~!!

Tuesday, July 26, 2005 ;

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Got quite emotional these days. My life in poly has lots of ups and downs. I've made lots of new frenz and they are real fun to be with. In my school life, I do not haf so many guy frenz before. wo swear. But i still get along better with female frenz becoz they will noe how to console you when you r feeling down which guys dun. I myself dunno how too.

Since the first semester, problems haf been haunting me. Some bitch accusing me of wanting something with her and caused Grace n Jacelyn to hate me for tt period of time. I wondered wat haf i done wrong. Y do u wanna do this to me.. Luckily after all the evidence thrown to Grace n Jace, everything was cleared. The bitch was then the nxt target for Grace. Serve her right.

Fell in love with the wrong person in my life. It was the worse thing I haf ever done so. Ignoring everyone's advice and going on with my stand. Hurt by her in the end. It just lasted for a day and it was ended with a lamest excuse I have ever heard of

Life was still fucking lonely at that point of time. Maybe still not used to the single life I am going thru at tt pt of time. It only ended when I met all these guys. All real buddies. Though we have nth to do everyday, we can just hang around tampines and I still feel happy. Rather the cooping myself at home. Parents said that I haf turned bad. Returning home late and all. Imagine.. In the past without these guys, where do you expect me to go other than home? Right? U cant just pass the verdict on saying I m bad as I am returning home late nowadays.

Not only them, Jacelyn too. She said that I haf changed. Haf I changed alot? It's true that I m not the same person as in Sem 1. I smoke and do all those things guai ppl dun do one.. I fell for Jace in Sem 2 for dunno wat reason. She is always there for me when I m down n vice versa. We were close then. She kept her feelings for me to herself till I found my new love. There she is being angry with me when she found out abt Cherie. I dun understand why she got angry with me. She started showing extra care to me. N every little action I do, she will get hurt. She even said that she broke up wif her bf becoz of me. Till now I still dun really believe it. Becoz of this, I quarreled wif both Jace n Cherie for quite alot of times. Now that I am back to single, she just heck cr abt me. She is selfish? Or like what chelle said, "she loves to be loved".. I m trying to get an ans

Gracie baby have been a good pal of mine since last sem. Got even closer this sem as we r in the same class. Reservoir bros, saffron bros, breakfast bros, tutorial bros n lots more. Sharing problems with her is a good thing. She will gif u good advices. But she dunno how to use all the advices on herself. OUTSIDE JADE GRACIE BABY..!! not 1 BUT 3..!! Luckily I took the initiative to clear the misunderstandings between the both of us in sem 1. If not i dunno how long she gonna hate me..!! All to those buddies... U R GREAT..!! WO SWEAR..!! Words used by them are very vulgar but we enjoyed it. Parents' names are used to play with. Can imagine Katic flipping thru the yellow pages juz to find the parents' names. Only one ass's parents' names cant be found. GRACE CHONG YEE BOON..!! Her hse is not found in the yellow pages. Illegal immigrant..!! These guys are not shy at all. We can just scream n shout in the middle of the road or in the public. We just dun bother abt wat others may think. We live for oursleves and not others. SO y should we care how other look at us..!!

I really treasure all these frenz whom has come into my life..!! I LOVE U GUYS..!!

12:06:00 AM

Sunday, July 24, 2005 ;

Chimjes ♥

Drunk outside is already not a good thing. Being drunk outside with two innocent without being taken care of late in the nite is even worse. Was down at chimjes last nite with the gang of guys. Mei n Hui was asked to come along too. I regretted calling them along or even going there myself. The two gers were so bored there. They were simply just sitting there talking to each other whole nite while we guys were grinding at the dance floor. Sorry mei n hui..!!

Blame it on myself to drink 3 cups of vodka NEAT n got myself drunk. N fuck it.. have to spent half an hour outside the toilet vomitting. Sucks..!! Wanted to go makan before heading hm wif mei n hui i cant even tk the cab ride that i wanted to vomit n could not join them. Wat a weakling. Sucks...!! Reached hm and i rested at my void deck for 10 mins before going up. Mum was still up and as usual, kena nagged again. Fuck cr la...

Cant even wake up to meet yang today. Head was spinning when i woke up.. the feeling sucks like hell.. chee bye...

5:14:00 PM

Saturday, July 16, 2005 ;

15/07/2005 ♥

"Wat's going on with this god bro and god sis thing?" people may ask. But I felt that having such relationship will pull the both of you closer to each other. I do not know about others but I definitely feel that way. My close frenz will know that since sec one I have a very close fren who is my god sis. Should say an idiotic and thick skinned mei..!! Till now we are still very close. I juz feel the bond between us is strong. Dunno how she feels la.

Anyway, met her up after so long due to some reasons. Mei.. u should noe y la...? Was supposed to meet her at Lucky Plaza but that stupid ger waited for me at Far East n I haf to walk all the way there. Shopped around there and took neoprints before heading towards Taka. Got the present for my special one there and went to Heeren for dinner. Took neoprints again. This time round more satisfied wif the neoprints.

The nite is still young after shopping at Cine. Called our frenz but none wanna come meet us so we went to starbucks to slack. N this idiotic ger so zhi lian. Kept blasting my hp wif all her pics. From full batt till left one bar. See how zhi lian she is. Kept saying "I love myself, do u love me?" Stupid ger. "I love my side view!!!" Very irritating... But really had great time snapping away wif my hp coz this lazy ger didnt bring her digi cam juz becoz her bag is heavy. Come on.. how heavy can a digi cam be...? But good thing.. my hp is of high quality so the pics r clear... hehe... Influenced by her till I m so thick skinned too. Wanna break the record of snapping till my hp has 200 images but something happened at hm n she has to leave. So we left. Anyway starbuck oso closing soon.

Mei:

Thanks for being there for me all these while whether I am happy or sad, you nv fail to stand by me and give me advices of what to do. Really appreciate it alot. Thanks alot. Now we can haf more time to go out together liao. SO muz meet up more often n haf more fun k? Muackz... I love u mei..!!! Bro n sis forever..!!

2:48:00 AM

Tuesday, July 12, 2005 ;

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brian.. lying in the park..