In life, many people come and go. You may gain some things and lose some things too. My thoughts went all the way back to Pri school days.
Primary school days were so fun. Boys have to look up at girls while talking to them. Running down the stairs and straight to the basketball court for soccer without any food. Attending classes in our sweat soaked uniforms. Disturbing teachers, screaming and playing in class. How innocent we were back then. There's this bunch of guys whom walked through the days in Primary school days with me. Desmond, Zheng Lin, Chee Fan, Yi Zheng, Jerome, Saiful, Reuben. These are the notorious ones in the class and the jokers. Nobody can stand our group esp Zheng Lin. N not forgetting the girls whom we like to disturb. Melody, Wei Li, Mei Tong, Charmaine, Ginger, Audrey, Yuet Ling and Pei Sin. And special thanks to Mei Tong who have accompanied me through two wonderful years. People always say that first love is the most memorable one and I totally agree with it though we were so young that time. But that was the only time when we don't have to worry so much. N you not looking down on me when I am so fat that time. Don't know if you are reading this. If you are, all the best to you and him.. Dun forget my invitation alright? N oso.. no more hatred towards caroline k? Give me face yeah? LOL! Thanks to the buddies whom walked through those wonderful years together.
All of them got separated except Yi Zheng and Chee Fan. We were posted to the same school and got transferred together as well. 3 of us were always together during Sec 1. Lunch together and back to my house basketball court to meet the rest for soccer. We were nv separated until Sec 2. I was the bastard who did not spend much time with them as was attached. Drifted away from Chee Fan though. Yi Zheng was still with me most of the time as our gfs were "sworn" sisters. Things were different during Sec 3 as all three of us weren't in the same class anymore. No more soccer, no more lunch. Onli after badminton trainings we will go for dinner together.
New frenz were also made during those days in BN. First girl who caught my eyes was of course my dearest mei. N she has always been the one whom I vented my anger on and the one who listen to all my rantings. Always there to console me. Crapping in msn, smses. Even though she is sitting next to me in class, I will still sms her. Juz too bo liao. Guy frenz needless to say would be the 4 bastards-Dan, Azri, Aloy, Alfiyan and Wee Loong, Izuan, Wei Siong and Sze Kiat. 9 of us will always be the noisiest in class and we are the jokers. It is more of a nuisance to our teachers during lesson time.
And to the 3 girls I was with during those days. Thanks for all the memories.. Zhen. U too.. Dun forget about my invitation.. No worries for sharon as she is the strongest and happily married already. Most worried one is still Caroline who is like a sotong. Being bullied oso just keep quiet and dunno wat has happened. It was a mistake to end it tt time. Even now she is still saying that if that time not before of that moment of folly, we might still be together now. Everything is fated.
4 years of my youth were spent in BN. Frenz were made but come to tink of it, there's only one close friend.
Spent the 3 dreadful years in TP or should I say 2. Really enjoyed myself during year 1. Being so carefree and going out with whoever I want. No worries at all. Becoz I was still not attached at that time. Have no problem talking to girls and getting close with them. No problems during project meetings. Can always attend those meetings and get involved with school events too. Ming Wei, Jacelyn, Vanessa, Poh Ying, Six, and of coz brother Gracie. And of coz the bunch of Hai Sing guys. Things were different in Year 2 but was still alright. Just lesser time spent together and there might me be heated arguments between me n cherie. But we were given the space we wanted and trust was there except towards Jacelyn. I've felt that J has suffered alot all these while. But we were still as close. The feelings were there but nobody dare to make the first move.
Things were quite bad in Year 3. First, things turned bad between ming wei n myself due to an argument during a project discussion. Then slowly drifted away from J as Steph knew about my feelings for her in the past. Till now, I still dun understand why Jacelyn has to be treated as an enemy. It's all in the past. Things were alright in the beginning until some mistakes were made and things turned ugly. But whose fault, bystanders should understand better. Frenz left one by one as most of the time was spent with her. She has no trust hence things were really hard back then. No meeting of the guy frenz. SIP days were only lunchboxes in the office alone for almost 3 months. There wasn't any peace even when I am rushing my major project due to her sensitivity and being unreasonable. I kept quiet. Sometimes even finding all sorts of excuses to escape from meetings. What's the big deal when I am in an all girls' group for project. I have tried it once in Year 1 and things were very good and none of us got hooked. Only Yang know how I feel back then as things were all said to him. But sometimes it's very irritating to talk to him about all these as he likes to give stupid ideas.
Now, he's gone too. What has happened? Nobody knows. We wish to know so we can do something. But Jason and I are really helpless.
N for her.. I also felt so helpless. Wat should I do to make her overcome herself? Hope things will get better when time goes by.
Looking back, there are only regrets. But all these thoughts, I've told myself something...