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Back to clear the cobwebs.
Life was full of emotions for me for the past weeks. One min I can be very noisy and irritating to others. The other min, I will become very quiet and walk alone in front or sit at one corner. What has gotten into me? I, myself got no ans to this.
Having a barrier in myself is never a good thing. Was awaken by some harsh words one night. Some things cannot be forced. So I have finally know how to take things at a step. Life has been better since then. Someone told me she is more relieved to see me back to my usual self. Yet, some things still cant be forgotten and its still there no matter how hard I've tried to get rid of them. It only makes me miss them more.
Juz read a blog entry talking abt how can a r/s last. Trust is an important factor in every r/s. It is not something which you can develop over the night. This is something which I am lacking throughout all my r/s. Michelle once told me to reflect back on all my failed r/s. N i realised wat a fool I was back then. Having those advice I've got from my colleagues in my head, I am sure trust won't be an issue to me anymore. Things will not be as bad as before and I will cherish everything in future if that special one really appear and give me a chance to prove it.
Sometimes, we say that the love and trust between a couple will become stronger overcoming all sorts of obstacles together. What about friendship? Does a minor thing affect a friendship of years? We shared the same feeling that we have become very distant from you. No more words can be described our feelings. Things aren't the same anymore. We can no longer share our problems like we do in the past. What has caused all these to become like that? Can you please clear our doubts?
Time restriction is such a chore. Wake me up when July ends. N its time for me to return to court. Hope it will be the verdict which I wish to hear long ago. I miss my night life!! I miss drinking at fishermen, clubs, slacking around at night, going home at sun rise. When will that day come? When it comes, it will be the day when we go HK, taiwan, cruise, genting. Give me back my passport!!!!! ARGHHHH!!!! I wan no more 8.30 rush!!!
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