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Wat happened to the both of us? I m wondering. R the smiles on her face all true or forced? I really wanna noe.
Had a small arguement yest evening. Her words really hurt me alot whenever she is unhappy. Wat m I tinking?! Sucks!! A day without seeing her, my heart will be very uncomfortable. I dunno y! Haf been very deep into this though it is not long. She is the onli one I dun dare to scold or raise my voice too often. Out of all my gfs, I onli allowed her to talk to guys over the fone or go out wif guys alone. Those close to me should noe tt I m not tt kind of guy who will allow my gf to do all these things. I am very sensitive and get jealous very easily . But dunno y after being wif her, I've changed. Though I will still get unhappy, I wont complain or argue wif her over such things. She made me trust her. She is honest with me.
I thot tt the sweet days will be everlasting ever since I m back frm holidays. But it is ending soon le ba. She is very moody today. Even the msg she sent in the morning is so much diff frm the one she sent yest morning. Called her, she accidentally rejected it but didnt call back. She sounded moody when I called her again. Wanted to meet her today but she didnt wan to. Maybe she is sick of seeing me everyday? Haiz. I didnt even dare to call her. Juz smsed her. Short replies. 3 plus called her but hanged up less than 2 mins. Smsed her till 3.54 pm. she stopped replying. N till now, she didnt call or even sms me. Feel like calling her but scared. Wanan go down but I noe she wont be happy coz I m having a paper tml. So I msged yang to see if she is alright. Knew tt she was slacking there but no msg was sent by her. Wat should I do? Really very scared. First time I feared so much. Call me henpecked or watever name u can tink of, I dun cr. I juz need her cr n love!!
Was talking to yang n grace in sch. Was talking abt the new hp yang n baobao had got from their parents. grace was asking bao's mum bought it for her. I said ya, she is so xing fu. Everything she wants, she gets it. But one sentence from Grace set me wondering. "Steph wants a good bf but y didnt she get one" This sentence is although a joke from tt idiot but it really makes me tink. M I a gd bf to baobao? Is she happy to be wif me? M I by her side everytime she needs a pair of listening ears? M I the one she wants?
Baobei.. I hope tt u will not keep things to urself. I m by ur side to share ur joys and sorrows. U r nv alone. U r my everything now. All I need is ur love!! Tell me wat u r thinking. Even if it's something unpleasant to my hears, juz tell me. can? pls. Either one of us haf to change our temper and I haf decided to change it. My room messy, I haf packed it. Everything I do, I do it for u. Hope u can see it.
p.s. i cant tk it any longer. i've plucked up the courage to msg her liao. Waiting for her reply.
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