[Nv EveR HurT uR BeLoveD OnE...!!!] ♥
haiz.. very bored.. cant get to slp... now already 2.48 but still cant get to slp.. lots of problems in my mind.. haiz.. dunno wat i m fan abt oso... maybe exams coming liao ba.. haiz.. cant really sutdy lor.. when i wanna study.. in the room.. com will tempt me... then it will be the TV's turn when i go to the living room.. if i go outside study i will get distracted easily.. haiz.. sometimes i wonder y muz we study so much... study is to juz get a cert... but one cert after another is more n more impt than the one before.. those without a cert r branded as useless... haiz... wat is this world becoming...!!
i was watching a taiwanese drama serial on SCV juz now.. "The Outsiders" made me realised how muc hi haf hurt the gers who used to be by my side.. there is one ger whom i really hurt very badly... i dunno how to treasure her... i used to vent anger on her.. shout at her.. scream at her.. but she is always there for me.. continue loving me n cr for me even though i treated her ao meanly... but i did not noe how to treasure.. muz i be like Yu Hao in the show?? he loves Xiao Yan Zi very much n vice versa.. they both oso went thru alot before being together happily.. he is a short tepered person.. liek to throw his temper over minor stuffs.. he crs alot for xiao yan zi but did not show out... she continue loving her n crs alot for him but he dun appreciate... until after a serious problem n xiao yan zi cant tk it anymore n attempted suicide he start to panick.. wont it be a bit too late?? haiz... i noe how badly i treat the ger who always stand by me supporting me n lending me a listening ear.. but i tk all those for granted... we too haf been thru lots of ups n downs before being together happily.. but i juz didnt noe how to treasure it... she cried alot when i first asked to end the relationship... but i juz thot nth abt it.. it somehow hurts me... i thot i can be without her.. but seriously i cant... tts y we got back together... but tt lasted for a mth onli... i was very fed up tt time so i juz accepted the break up.. she knew tt i hate gers who like to threaten to break up after minor quarrels.. yet she used it in our relationship... she tried to patch things up later but i rejected which i come to regret... haiz.. how i wish i can turn back the time so i can say yes to patching things up... haiz... but its all gone forever... so guys out there... PLS DUN HURT THE GERS ESP WHEN THEY REALLY LOVE U VERY MUCH... its very cruel... they might do silly things n i m sure u wont wan anything to happen to them rite?? so.. PLS.. PLS.. DUN HURT THEM..!!
this is meant for Carol if u r reading...
Carol.. i'm really very sorry for all the hurt i have inflicted on u during the times when we were together... i m realy very sorry... i did not noe how to treasure u... u r always there to share my sorrows but i m not there for u... instead it's ur frenz who r always there for u... when guys cr for u i will onli tend to get jealous but did not really reflect on how i treat u... haiz.. i m very useless.. sorry... we have been thru so much before getting together... esp ur family's stage which is the toughest stage... u were so scared of ur parents tt time.. scared tt they will come n confront me tt time.. n we haf overcome tt... yet we did not last long... tt time u were still young n was mummy's girl ma hor... i will always remember all the happy times we spent together... i m really very happy... the happiest moments i cant forget were the times during our class chalet.. i felt so loved tt time.. i dunno abt u... able to hug u to slp every nite was wat i loved n yearned so much... i will nv forget those times... really wanna thank u for bringing so much love to me.. thank u..!! muackz.. miss u.. muz tk cr hor.. keep in contact hor...
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