Tuesday, December 15, 2009 ;

What the hell am I doing? I really dunno. I know where my heart is.. But its just too late now. I hate it!!!! ARGHHH!!!!

9:12:00 AM

Sunday, August 02, 2009 ;

you are still missed everyday. though i noe that things will nv be the same again. tears dropped. glad you are doing good! tk cr. you are the one i love most too....

1:55:00 AM

Monday, July 27, 2009 ;

Everything has ended!! But it's the same as many r/s. Someone must hate the other. I chose to be the one being hated. It's hard to make this choice.. But.. I still have to. For the sake of both of us. Life was hard for me when we just started. Felt like being a third party and loving someone alone is so so difficult. For half a yr, I kept mum abt it. I knew I love you. I have to give in. Yes. I finally touched your heart. You finally loved me. But how long did it last? Wherever we go, whatever we do, some of ur past still haunts u. I kept quiet. I was praying hard everyday that all these things will be gone very soon... But nope. It will NEVER go!! I will still be compared to him. Even though u say no but i can still feel it. But where can I express all these feelings?? To u?? To my friends?? None!!! NOBODY!!! When you are unhappy, you can just rant and throw temper at me. Easily... But can I do the same? In every r/s, we give and tk. But I give in most of the time. I did said before that I wont giving in as it will avoid arguments. But you seem to take everything for granted. I cant say much oso. You have high pride. I myself as a guy can put down my pride and tk the initiative to solve the problems between us. Even when I m not at fault. But you? NOPE!! Not once. You still wanna show your attitude. Show others how u treat me. Not the first time you tried to embarrass me in front of ur frenz. What's the point of trying to solve the problems when you didnt want to in the first place? It's too late.. I tried to solve it. You didnt want to. I gave you more than a week! But u didnt bother. ITS ALL TOO LATE!! Seriously I have never done anything wrong to u and never will. I can say that. Just treat it that we can nv be happy together. We are not fated. You are better off without me. I m possessive. Go ahead with your new life. Enjoy with your frenz n him. Every r/s, there must be a bad guy. Let me be the one. The secret will never be revealed. Tk care of yourself my love. You will always be remembered....

3:39:00 PM

Sunday, June 07, 2009 ;

It's been a long time since I open up this... Since I have the time now, shall update it again.. Two weeks ago was my Footdrill Competition. It had been a tiring past 2 months for me. Have to go thru night drill and stayed up polishing and ironing. Inspect all the recruits uniform to make sure everything is in tip top condition. The pressure is there for me to handle. Being the defending champions for 3 consecutive intakes, it was really difficult for me... When my encik told me to take up the Platoon Sergeant role, I told myself I have to give my best. Luckily there's my colleagues esp Shahrul who helped me out alot. N oso my beloved Baby giving endless support throughout the whole competition... and of coz... the squad members who are very cooperative and learnt things very fast..I was really shocked and at the same time very happy. The night before the competition was a tense moment. Coming back to camp as early as 5, I prepared myself with lots of honey. I prayed hard that all the 36 recruits will turn up as for the past few intakes, the recruits are not willing to book in earlier. But they actually booked in early!! We had to stayed up till 2 plus to prepare everything. Actually I wanted to slp after 12 but the recruits' boots and uniform are not done properly yet haf to stay up n helped them. 2 plus I couldn't take it anymore. Shahrul helped me stay up till 4 plus to help them. Actual day was even worse. Butterflies in my stomach. Took a cold bath. Honey. Walked like a zombie to the waiting area with the starched uniform. I was so afriad that I will miss some commands and that the atmosphere will be very tense. But when it started, it turned out as if it was just a training session. I was calm. The guys were calm. Everything ended smoothly and beautifully. Results time!!! We did it again!!!!!! We took all 3 prizes!! Best platoon sergeant, Best platoon commander and of coz BEST FOOTDRILL SQUAD for the 4TH INTAKE STRAIGHT!!! I finally can put my heart down and wait for my ORD peacefully!! First time a chinese guy win Best PS!! WOOTS!!!

3:13:00 PM

Friday, December 26, 2008 ;

Hey hey!! Merry Christmas!!!
This year is our second year celebrating christmas together. Life has been wonderful and this whole week is very fulfiling!! Away from work since last friday which was also Baby's last day of SIP!! Christmas shopping for friends and family members. Our pockets are saved from having a bigger hole by her mum's Taka vouchers. Haha!!! Sunday was supposed to be our chalet. But in the end, all my relatives went over to stay and play mahjong. In the end, Baby and I went home in the evening and bought all the stuff for BBQ the next day. Went back to chalet on Monday. Aunts and uncles left le and we had BBQ with her frenz. The food was too much for the 4 of us. In the end, we had to throw away some of them. LOL!! Its the first time we go the fire started in less than 5 mins. Lol!! Baby wanted to stay for one more day hence I extended it without asking for her approval when I noe the price is a bit too steep. Lol. Coz I noe she will not want to stay one. So I dun care! Hehe.... Was asked to go back camp for the recruits' final exercise before they pass out. But luckily I didnt go back. Coz it was cancelled at the end due to some misunderstandings. Baby bought a lot of bangles at the D Marquee. We bought shirts for my father and her grandfather. Baby and I wanted to go Escape but I didnt bring extra shirt so in the end we ended up at K Box. Ended up playing Mahjong in the room with our frenz in the end till late night. We only had Subway for dinner in the evening and my silly ger didnt tell me she's hungry. In the end suffered from gastric the next day. Dad went to fetch us up and went for breakfast. She went for Medi and Pedi. I was told that it was just $55 only but in the end, it ended up $106 dollars. And I was kept in the dark until I asked her. Bought mummy's present and went for dinner with them. Mummy's treat. We went for our long waited photoshoot. That stupid shop told us to reach at 12 noon sharp. In the end we had to wait till 12.30. When we reached, there's a Indian family already having their shoot since 10. And the ppl there were very unhappy with them. Imagine we finished our shoot, they are still having their last outfit shoot. They say its easier to help us take. Of coz la!!! Indians are too troublesome and picky. Walked around the place and found the place so cool!! Can still find the Barber in the old days. Met J couple for Japanese buffet for dinner and exchanged gifts. Jason is a young and dangerous driver. I must say that Baby and myself cannot even feel the Christmas atmosphere at all. Its just like a normal day to us. Nothing special at all!! is it becoz of the economy crisis??? I'm sorry baby!! I promise you I'll give you a better christmas next year k??? Muackz!!! N dear dear wanna tell you something... I have been very sensitive for the last two weeks. I am sorry. I promised it wont happen again. Muackz!! I love you forever! I'm really very happy and fortunate to have u by my side all these while. Nobody has made me such a happy person!!! Muackz!!! I LOVE YOU BABY!!!!!!

9:55:00 PM

Saturday, October 25, 2008 ;

Life with Baby is always full of joy and laughter. Time flies and we have been together for more than a year now. We have gone thru many fights, quarrels, misunderstandings and of coz good and sweet times to come this far. Till now, I still feel like I am still living in my dreamland. She has been such a wonderful gf to me all these while. I would say that she is the best gf ever. Nobody can be compared to her.
With all our quarrels cut to the minimal, life has been great so far. She has started her internship at OCBC. Everyday after camp, would go to Raffles to pick her up and have dinner before going home. It becomes a routine as both of us will be very tired every nite. Seeing her like tt hurts me alot too. Sometimes I would tk half day just to acc her for lunch. Muackz. Baby. Endure.. 2 more months and it will be thru...
We has just celebrated our first anniversary last month. It was a tiring day for me as the nite before I didnt slp due to the Home Team Real Run and it ended at noon on our special day. I rushed down to her house immediately after bathing. I received my present. It was so heartwarming. Handmade album by my dearest girl. It is so so sweet and very funny.
We had our post anniversary dinner at Indulgz last week. Baby's idea coz she wanted to treat me. The food there was ok. Only the surprise baby gave me made me happy. She planned everything before hand with the person in charge. N I thought nothing much becoz she told me their idea was lame. The portion of food was small and it taste very ordinary. Nothing special. Then come my dessert. Eating halfway, I bite on something seems like a straw. I wanted to complain so I licked it to double confirm it not white choc. It was only then I realised that I was a written note by Baby... She even tried to act blur in front of me and cant stop laughing when I saw it... Muackz. i love it alot baby!! Muackz!
Our first neoprint was taken on that night too. She felt weird taking it as it is her first time taking with Bf. So she told me we cant have any kissing poses. I cant hug her from the back only she can. Haha. It feel so great when she hug me.. I dunno why. Just the feeling. It cant be described. All in all. Baby is the best!!!
Baby, after one year of fighting and quarreling with sweet times too, we got to understand each other better than ever. We have learned to give in to each other and wont pick up a fight over the slightest matter. Muackz. I really wanna thank you for staying by my side all these while and showering me with ur love for this one whole year. Muackz. There are still many many years for us to go. 09/09/09 will be the day baby!!! Muackz!! I love u so much baby!!!

6:32:00 PM

Monday, August 25, 2008 ;

One month has just passed without me realising and there goes my another intake of recruits. They have become rescuers now. 4 more intakes to go before I can say BYE BYE to NS life. It really sucks to the core. The pay is so fucking low and you have to work under the supervision of so many higher rankings and working with the fear of getting charged for the stupid minor things which you thought was not wrong at all.
Anyway, enough of camp life and now its down to my two weeks camp break again and I should be able to clear my OIL to enjoy with baby once again. LOL!! Have been spending lots of time and going several places with baby. Been taking OVL just to spend time with her and we actually got burnt by the sun when we went WWW two weeks ago. Baby actually accompanied me to my fellow instructors' gathering at Sentosa. And she did not kept quiet over there which I was so happy. At first I thought she might get bored and get pissed off with me but she didnt. That shows what a good gf she is. She is really the best GF I've ever had. Seriously. She is really very understanding and supportive in everything I do. What touches me most was last week she came all the way down to Boon Lay to fetch me. But I was called for a meeting at the last minute and it lasted for almost an hour. She waited there and didnt even throw her temper at me. The week before when i went to play mahjong with J couple and Nick, though I said I didnt wanna go coz she might get bored, she asked me to go ahead and acc me there. She just sat next to me and watch me and the next day when I played again, she just sat in the room and read storybook. She is my lady luck and i won quite a lot on that one weekend. Baby also started off her first driving lesson after so long and she can drive quite well. The instructor even praised her. LOL. Now she have to wait for her BTT so she can go onto the road to gain more experience and be more confident in driving. We have also signed up for a couple photoshoot at a bridal roadshow at TM last week. Gonna have our own portfolio of our love journey for this one year. Shall take the photos on our first anniversary. Cant wait for that day!! The last weekend was spent at Clarke Quay. We visited Clarke Quay for two consecutive days. Baby found a new shopping paradise at Central. She bought a blouse, belt and a pair of heels there. I swear she is like a big baby!! Like a small kid who has just got a new toy n get so excited over it. LOL!! She really look so so cute at that very moment. We went Clinic and hopped on to Crazy Elephant. Though its just the both of us, but everything is so wonderful with just her by my side. Muackz!! I love you baby!! Today baby went for her interview and she found out that the company was such a KOK company. They specialises in programming which baby has long forgotten how to do it. Her interview was just to complete a worksheet on programming given to her. What kind of interview is that man!! She came down to fetch me again and had dinner at City Link. Gastric hit her again and we cabbed home.
This is for you my dearest lovely Baby!! Muackz. Next week we will be celebrating our 11th month. i know it's not very long to you but we have gone thru so much to be together. From me admiring you secretly 2 years back to now holding your hand and builing our future slowly. You are the best gift GOD has given me. Though you may feel that I might not mean what I say but i wanna tell you that, I am really very serious with this relationship. You are really the best. All the other girls are really nothing compared to you. Though you might have a bad temper at times, but you threw it at the right time. You threw it becoz I was unreasonable to you. You were so understanding and supportive towards me. You have never once failed to bring joy and laughter to my daily life. I have done so so much in order to make you love me wholeheartedly and hope it wont just stop here. Long goes the daily quarrels. We have learnt to give in to each other and love each other more now. Seeing you everyday really make me feel so so loved. With your hugs and kisses every night melts my heart. Waking up in the morning and able to see you still having your sweet dreams is the best thing that can happen. Like wat you says, you dun wan all these to stop even when we step out into the working society. Our love must be stronger and go thru all the obstacles that come in between us alright? Nothing's gonna break us up. I wan your trust baby. I promise you I wont doing anything unfaithful behind you and will never let you tear again. I promise. And never will I ever leave you unless you choose to.. Muackz!! I LOVE YOU FOREVER BABY!! YOU ARE THE BEST!!!

9:58:00 PM


Me!

My name is Lim Ah Hee.
And I Say Hee~
He Say Haa~
She Say Ho~
We Say Hey~
Wooots =)
B'dae: 5/6/1987
But I celebrate my birthday every month cos I love to recieve presents =D
Shhhhh~!! Dun tell anyone.. cos only you all know bout this
Muackz Muackz Muackz!!! Thank you
O ya~ I love my smelly feet and armpit~


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